"A life of nothings, nothing-worth, From that first nothing ere his birth To that last nothing under earth!" "These words," I said, "are like the rest, No certain clearness, but at best A vague suspicion of the breast: "But if I grant, thou might'st defend The thesis which thy words intendThat to begin implies to end; "Yet how should I for certain hold, Because my memory is so cold, That I first was in human mould? "I cannot make this matter plain, But I would shoot, howe'er in vain, A random arrow from the brain. "It may be that no life is found, Which only to one engine bound Falls off, but cycles always round. "As old mythologies relate, Some draught of Lethe might await The slipping through from state to state. "As here we find in trances, men Forget the dream that happens then, "So might we, if our state were such As one before, remember much, For those two likes might meet and touch. "But, if I lapsed from nobler place, Some legend of a fallen race Alone might hint of my disgrace; "Some vague emotion of delight In gazing up an Alpine height, Some yearning toward the lamps of night. "Or if through lower lives I came Though all experience past became Consolidate in mind and frame "I might forget my weaker lot; For is not our first year forgot? The haunts of memory echo not. "And men, whose reason long was blind, From cells of madness unconfined, Oft lose whole years of darker mind. 66 Much more, if first I floated free, As naked essence, must I be Incompetent of memory: "For memory dealing but with time, "Moreover, something is or seems, "Of something felt, like something here; Of something done, I know not where; Such as no language may declare." The still voice laughed. "I talk," said he, "Not with thy dreams. Suffice it thee Thy pain is a reality." "But thou," said I, "hast missed thy mark, Who sought'st to wreck my mortal ark, By making all the horizon dark. 66 Why not set forth, if I should do This rashness, that which might ensue “Whatever crazy sorrow saith, No life that breathes with human breath Has ever truly longed for death. ""T is life, whereof our nerves are scant, O life, not death, for which we pant; More life, and fuller, that I want." I ceased, and sat as one forlorn. Then said the voice, in quiet scorn, 66 'Behold, it is the Sabbath morn." And I arose, and I released The casement, and the light increased Like softened airs that blowing steal, On to God's house the people prest: Passing the place where each must rest, Each entered like a welcome guest. One walked between his wife and child, With measured footfall firm and mild, And now and then he gravely smiled. The prudent partner of his blood Leaned on him, faithful, gentle, good, Wearing the rose of womanhood. And in their double love secure, These three made unity so sweet, I blest them, and they wandered on: I spoke, but answer came there none: The dull and bitter voice was gone. A second voice was at mine ear, As from some blissful neighborhood, A notice faintly understood, "I see the end, and know the good." A little hint to solace woe, A hint, a whisper breathing low, "I may not speak of what I know." |