morning. Towards noon enjoyed more of God in secret, was enabled to see that it was best to throw myself into his hands, to be disposed of according to his pleasure, and rejoiced in such thoughts. In the afternoon, rode to New-Haven; was much confused all the way. Just at night, underwent such a dreadful conflict, such as I have scarcely ever felt. I saw myself exceeding vile and unworthy; so that I was guilty and ashamed, that any body should bestow favours on me, or shew me any respect.

Lord's day, August 22. In the morning, continued still in perplexity.—In the evening, enjoyed that comfort which seemed sufficient to overbalance all my late distressess. I saw that God is the only soul-satisfying portion, and I really found satisfaction in him. My soul was much enlarged in making intercession for my fellowmen everywhere, and for many Christian friends in parti= cular, in distant places.

Monday, August 23. Had a good season in secret prayer: the Lord drew near to my soul, and filled me with peace and divine consolation. I tasted the sweetness of the upper world, and was sweetly drawn out in prayer, that all the world might come home to Christ! Had much comfort in anticipating the ingathering of the Hea then; was greatly assisted in intercession for Christian friends.

[He continued still in the same frame of mind the next day, but in a lesser degree.]

Wednesday, August 25. In family prayer, God helped me to draw near to him, so that I scarcely ever got nearer. [The four next days, he appears to have been the subject of desertion, and of comfort and fervency in religion, interchangeably, together with a sense of vileness and un profitableness.]

Monday, August 30. Felt somewhat comfortably in the morning; conversed sweetly with some friends; was in a serious composed frame; prayed at a certain house with some degree of fervour. Afterwards, at another house, prayed privately with a dear Christian friend or two; and, I think, I scarcely ever launched so far into the eternal world as then. I got so far out on the broad

ocean, that my soul with joy triumphed over all the evils on the shores of mortality. Time, and all its gay amusements and cruel disappointments, never appeared so inconsiderable to me before, I was in a sweet frame; I saw myself nothing, and my soul went out after God with intense desire. Oh I saw what I owed to him, in such a manner as I scarcely ever did: I knew, I had never lived a moment to him as I should do. Indeed it appeared to me, I had never done any thing in Christianity my soul longed with a vehement desire to live to God. In the evening, sung and prayed with a number of Christians; and felt "the powers of the world to come. Afterwards prayed again privately, with a dear Christian or two, and found the divine presence; was somewhat humbled in secret retirement; felt my ingratitude, because I was not wholly swallowed up in God. [He was in a happy frame great part of the next day.] Wednesday, September 1. Went to Judea, to the or dination of Mr Judd. Dear Mr Bellamy preached from Matt. xxiv. 46. "Blessed is that servant," &c. I felt very solemn most of the time; my thoughts dwelt much on that time when our Lord will come; only I was afraid, I should not be found faithful, because I have so depraved a heart. My thoughts were much in eternity, where I love to dwell. Blessed be God for this solemn season.-Rode home to-night with Mr Bellamy, felt happy on the road; conversed with some friends till it was very late, and then retired to rest in a comfortable frame.

Thursday, September 2. About two in the afternoon, I preached from John vi. 67. and God assisted me in some comfortable degree; but more especially in my first prayer, My soul seemed then to launch quite into the eternal world and to be as it were separated from this lower state. Afterwards preached again from Isaiah v. 4. God gave me some assistance; but I saw myself a poor

worm.

[On Friday, September 3. He complains of having but little life in the things of God, the former part of the day, but afterwards speaks of much enlargement.]

Saturday, September 4. Much out of health, exceedingly depressed in spirit, and at an awful distance from God. Towards night, spent some time in profitable thoughts on Rom. viii. 2. Had a refreshing season in prayer; God enabled me to wrestle ardently for the advancement of the Redeemer's kingdom; pleaded earnestly for my own dear brother John, that God would make him more of a pilgrim and stranger on the earth, and fit him for singular usefulness in the world; and my heart exulted in the thoughts of any distresses that might alight on him or me, in the advancement of Christ's kingdom.It was truly a comfortable season, to be indulged with freedom to plead, not only for myself, but for many others.

Lord's day, September 5. Preached all day was somewhat strengthened and assisted in the afternoon; more especially in the evening: had a sense of my unspeakable shortcomings in all my duties. I found, alas! that I had never lived to God in my life.

Monday, September 6. Was informed that they only waited for an opportunity to apprehend me for preaching at New-Haven lately, that so they might imprison me. This made me more solemn and serious, and to quit all hopes of the world's friendship: it brought me to a further sense of my sinfulness, and just desert of this and much more, froin the hand of God, though not from the hand of man. Retired into a convenient place in the woods, and spread the matter before God.

Tuesday, September 7. Had some relish of divine things in the morning. Afterwards felt more barren and melancholy. Rode to New-Haven, to a friend's house at a distance from the town; there I remain undiscovered, and yet have opportunity to do business privately with friends who come to Commencement.

Wednesday, September 8. Felt very comfortable when I first rose in the morning. In family prayer, had some enlargement, but not much spirituality, till eternity came up before me, and looked near; I found some satisfaction in the thoughts of bidding a dying farewell to this tiresome world. Though some time ago I reckoned upon

seeing my dear friends at Commencement; yet being now denied the opportunity, for fear of imprisonment, I felt totally resigned, and as contented to spend this day alone in the woods as I could have done, if I had been allowed to go to town. Felt exceedingly weaned from the world to-day. In the afternoon discoursed on divine things with a dear Christain friend, and we were both refreshed. Then I prayed, with a deep sense of the blessedness of communion with God: I think I scarce ever enjoyed more of God in any one prayer. It was a blessed season indeed to my soul. I knew not that I ever saw so much of my own nothingness in my life; never wondered so, that God allowed me to preach his word; never was so astonished before. This has been a good day to my soul. Blessed be God. Prayed again with my dear friend, and enjoyed the divine presence. I long to be wholly conformed to God, and transformed into his image.

Thursday, September 9. Spent much of the day alone: had the presence of God in some comfortable degree: was visited by some dear friends, and prayed with them. Wrote sundry letters to friends; felt religion in my soul while writing: enjoyed some sweet meditations on the Scriptures. In the evening, went very privately into town, from the place of my residence at the farms, and conversed with some dear friends; felt happy in singing hymns with them: and made my escape to the farms again, without being discovered by any of my enemies. Thus the Lord preserves me continually.

Friday, September 10. Longed with intense desire after God; my whole soul seemed impatient to be con→ formed to him, and to become "holy, as he is holy.' In the afternoon, prayed with a dear friend privately, and had the presence of God with us; our souls united together to reach after a blessed immortality, to be unclothed of the body of sin and death, and to enter the blessed world where no unclean thing enters. With what intense desire did our souls long for that blessed day, that we might be freed from sin, and for ever live to and in our God! In the evening, took leave of that house; but first kneeled down and prayed; the Lord was of a truth

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in the midst of us; it was a tender parting season; felt in myself much sweetness and affection in the things of God. Blessed be God for every such divine gale of his Spirit, to speed me on in my way to the new Jerusalem! Afterwards, spent the evening in conversation with friends; prayed with some life, and retired to rest very late.

[The five next days, he appears to have been in a very comfortable frame of mind, for the most part, and to have been the subject of the like heavenly exercises as are often expressed in preceding passages of his diary; such as, having his heart much engaged for God, wrestling with God in prayer with power and ardency, enjoying at times sweet calmness and composure of mind, giving himself up to God to be his for ever, being wholly resigned to the will of God, that he might do with him what he pleased, longing well to improve time, having the eternal world as it were brought nigh, longing after God and holiness, earnestly desiring a complete conformity to him, and wondering how poor souls do to exist without God.]

Thursday, September 16. At night, enjoyed much of God in secret prayer: felt an uncommon resignation, to be and do what God pleased. Some days past, I felt great perplexity on account of my past conduct: my bitterness, and want of Christian kindness and love, has been very distressing to my soul: the Lord forgive me my unchristian warmth, and want of a spirit of meekness! [The next day, he speaks of much resignation, calmness, and peace of mind, and near views of the eternal world,]

Saturday, September 18. Felt some compassion for souls, and mourned I had no more. I feel much more kindness, meekness, gentleness and love towards all mankind, than ever. I long to be at the feet of my enemies and persecutors. Enjoyed some satisfaction in feeling my soul conformed to Christ Jesus, and given away to him for ever.

[The next day, he speaks of much dejection and discouragement, from an apprehension of his own unfitness