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Washing “ Wash me throughly from my Wicked« ness, and cleanse me from my Sin. 0 " Was me with thy precions Blood, O most

gracious Lord Jesu, who hast loved us and 6c waih'd us from our Sins. Except thou wash

me, I have no part in thee. Thou hast made

me sensible that I stand in needof thy ama“zing Condescention, to be waht from the ¢ stains which I daily Contract, that thou

may'st engage me to practice daily the « fame Condescention to my Christian Bre" thren. Amen.

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"O my God, to thee I humbly offer up my “ felf, accept of me graciously to be thine " in thy Dear Son. Thou hast made me e what I am, and given me what I havez " I live by thee, O that I may live to thee. “ By thee I am this moving Body, and this u thinking Soul. O that both may pay

Homage to thee; thou upholdest and su" stainest me every Moment, I am a living “ Monument of thy Mercy, that I may ec be a living Monument of thy Praise: “ Glory be to thee, O Lord, most High.

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Thus did Mr. Bonnell discharge the great Duty of Prayer, in every part of it, both Pablick and Private: And as he Pray'd mith. out ceasing ; To he was a constant and devout

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Guest at the Lord's-Table: And therefore I now come to Thew, what his Practice was, with Respect to the Holy Sacrament of the Lord's-Supper.

He was very early touch'd, with a lively Sense of his Obligations, to commemorate our Saviours Pallion, in that Holy Mystery; and I find from his own Meditations, that as he improv'd in Knowledge and Years, his Defires after that Divine Feast, grew stronger still. For there he found all the endearing Comforts of Religion; God's Goodness dila play'd, and His Justice satisfi'd : The Contemplation of which, gives the truest Peace and Joy to Humble and Penitent Minds.

A great part of his Private Writings confist of Meditations, preparative to the Sacrament, or Thanksgivings after it : So that for several Years of his Life, hardly a Week passed over, but he put down some Communion Thoughts in Writing; some Meditation or Prayer, upon the Love of God to Mankind; or some part of our Saviour's Life, or Sufferings; especially, during the late Troubles, when he needed the Supports of Religion most, and feems to have enjoy'd them, in a greater degree than at other times.

After his Settling in Dublin, His constant Practice for many Years, was, to Communicate twice every Month: Beside all the solemn Times, when the Holy Sacrament is adminiftred. But such longing Desires had he, after that sacred Memorial of our Savi

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our's Love; that he cou'd not allow himself to want it, whenever it might be had ; so that at last, he Receiv'd every Lord'sDay.

Tho' his Life was a constant Preparation for the Holy Communion, yet he had very strict and particular Retirements in order to put his Mind into that Divine Frame, which he judg’d so necessary, for that near and solemn Approach to God: And these happy Retirements, were employ'd in strict Examinations of his Life; and a severe enquiry after his smallest Failings; and the warmest Meditations upon the Love of God, and bitter Pallion of our Bielled Saviour. And in his latter Years, he Lamented nothing more, than that his Time was so taken up with Business, that his Retirements were interrupted; and consequently, his Thoughts not so much his own, as they us'd to be : And particularly, it troubled him, that he was often forc'd to be late at his Office upon Saturdays ; left his going to the Sacrament next Day, might have an ill Effect upon his Servants; and tempt them to presume too far, and approach the Lord's Table, without fufficient Preparation : For tho' (as he wou'd sometimes say) I steal Minutes at my Office; they are not enough to satisfie my self, much less to give good Example to Obers.

As it was his great Study, to Prepare himself aright, for the Holy Sacrament, that so he might come to it, with a truly Penitent

Heart, Heart, a lively Faith, and inflam’d Affeclions; so during the whole Administration, so intense were his Thoughts, so earnest were his Prayers, that those who were near, and observ'd him, hardly ever beheld him without Tears; which he conceal'd as much as he cou'd, by keeping close in the most private Corner of the Seat; and he was forc'd to take some time, to make his Face fit to appear before the Congregation. For though à sorrowful Conntenance does very well bea come every Devout Communicant; yet his Principle and Constant Practice was, to'avoid every thing, that might make him observ'd by others, or any way raise the Character of his Piety among Men; reserving that chiefly to the Eye of God.

When he return'd from Church, he immediately retir'd into his Closet, and fpent a considerable Time in his own Private Prayers and Praises: And as his Wife was still his Fellow Communicant; so with her, he Pray'd before Dinner, Blessing God for that happy Opportunity, given them both, of Commemorating our Saviour's Sufferings, and red ceiving the Pledges of his reconciled Favour ; and Praying for all those who had been Partakers with them, that Day, or at any other time, of those blessed means of Grace, which they had then receiv'd.

That unhappy Controversy, which DiIturbs our Church, about the Posture in Receiving the Holy Sacrament, was a great Trouble to him: His great Humility did

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then, in a particular manner, prompt him to fall low on his Knees : And in one place speaking of the Sacrament, he thus delivers his Sense of that Dispute.

" What need these Nice Disputes, about Posture in this Holy Exercise? We sit at ? God's Table, tho'we Kneel in the Church. (The Favour and the Privilege he grants

us, is that of acceptable Guests, who have leave to fit in his presence, and at Meat with him. It is our Souls that Sit! well

may our Bodies be, as they that Serve. ? The Table, which we call the Holy Altar,

is but a Shelf of Wood: God's Table is a Spiritual thing; it implies Privilege, and Favour, and Honour, and Freedom: And those that are admitted to this Divine Feast, sit at his Table, whatever Posture " their Bodies be in. Were Christ indeed

on Earth, the Table he sat at, we shou'd expect (if we were favour'd) to sit at too; because Equality in Posture, is Honour ; but now He Sits not at this Outward Table, which is before us; why then shou'd · We? The Food which we receive, comes

not from Thence to us, but from Heaven. « We sit at the Table from whence our Food

comes. 'Tis true on our Table, the Holy ? Elements are Impregnated with the Ma

terials of Life ; like the first framing of a

Living Creature, or Embryo, before it is Ć

Quickned : But they are Quickned with į

Spiritual Life, only upon the Faith of each Receiver, which God hath appointed to

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