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cousin, I make no apology for entertaining you with the history of my conversion, because I know you to be a Christian in the sterling import of the appellation. This is however but a very summary account of the matter; neither. would a letter contain the astonishing particulars of it. If we ever meet again in this world, I will relate them to you by word of mouth ;. if not, they will serve for the subject of a conferrence in the next, where I doubt not I shall remember and record them with a gratitude better suited to the subject.”
April 17, 1766.
(No. 2. ) 6 A's to amusements, I mean what the world calls such, we have none ; the place, indeed, swarms with them, and cards and dancing are the professed business of almost all the gentle inhabitants of 'Huntingdon. We refuse to take part in them, or to be accessaries to this way of murdering our time, and by so doing, have acquired the name of Methodists. Having told you how we do not spend our tíme, I will next say how we do. We breakfast commonly between eight and nine ; till eleven, we read either the Scripture, or the sermons of some faithful preacher of these holy mysteries ;. at. eleven, we attend divine service, which is performed here twice every day, and from twelve, to three, we separate, and amuse ourselves as, we please.' During that interval I either read in my own apartment, or walk, or ride, or work in the garden. Weseldom sit an hour after dina
ner, but if the weather permits adjourn to the garden, where, with Mrs. Unwin and her son, I have generally the pleasure of religious conversation till tea time! If it rains, or is too windy for walking, we either converse within doors, or sing some devotional hymns, and by the help of Mrs. Unwin's harpsichord make up a tolerable concert, in which our hearts, I hope, are the best and most musical performers. After tea we sally forth to walk in good earnest. Nirs. Unwin is a good walker, and we have generally travelled about four miles before we see home again. When the days are short, we make this excursion in the former part of the day, between church time and dinner. At night we read and converse as before till supper, and common ly finish the evening either with hymns or a sermon and last of all the family are called to prayers. I need not tell you, that such a life as this is consistent with the utmost cheerfulness; accordingly, we are all happy, and dwell together in unity as brethren. Mrs. Unwin has almost a maternal affection for me, and I have something very like a filial one for her ; and her son and I are brothers. Blessed be the God of our salvation for such companions, and for such a life ; above all, for an heart to like it.
“ I have had many anxious thoughts about taking orders, and I believe every new convert is apt to think himself called upon for that pur, pose ; but it has pleased God, by means which there is no need to particularize, to give me full satisfaction as to the propriety of declining it ; indeed, they who have the least idea of what I have suffered from the dread of public exhibi
tions, will really excuse my never attempting them hereafter. In the mean time, if it please the Almighty, I may be an instrument of turning many to the truth in a priyate way,and hope that my endeavours in this way have not been entirely unsuccessful. Had I the zeal of Moses, I should want an Aaron to be my spokes-man."
Huntingdon, Oct. 20, 1766.
(No. 3. ) 1To find those whom I love clearly and strongly persuaded of evangelical truth, gives me a pleasure superior to any that this world can afford me. Judge then, whether your letter, in which the body and substance of a saving faith is so evidently set forth, could meet with a lukewarm reception at my hands, or be entertained with indifference ! Would you know the true reason of my long silence ? Conscious that my religious principles are generally excepted against, and that the conduct they produce wherever they are heartily maintained, is still more the object of disapprobation than those principles themselves, and remembering that I had made both the one and the other known to you, without having any clear assurance that our faith in Jesus was of the same stamp and character, I could not help thinking it possible that you might disapprove both my sentiments and practice ; that you might think the one unsupported by Scripture, and the other whimsical, and unnecessarily strict and rigorous ; and consequently would be rather pleased with the suspension of a correspondence which a different way of thinking upon so momentous a subject as that we wrote upon was likely to render tedious and/irksome to you.
“I have told you the truth from my heart; forgive me these injurious suspicions, and never imagine that I shall hear from you upon this delightful theme without a real joy, or without a prayer to God to prosper you in the way of his truth, his sanctifying and saving truth. The book you mention lies now upon my table. Marshal is an old acquaintance of mine'; I have both read him, and heard him. read with pleasure and edification. The doctrines he maintains are, under the inffuence of the Spirit of Christ, the very life of my soul, and the soul of all my happiness; that Jesus is a present Saviour from the guilt of sin biy his most precious blood, and from the power of it by his spirit ; that corrupt and wretched in ourselves, in Him, and in Him only, we are com; plete ; that being united to Jesus by a lively faith, we have a solid and eternal interest in his obedience and sufferings, to justify us before the face of our heavenly Father, and that all this inestimable treasure, the earnest of which is in grace, and its consummation in glory, is given, freely given to us of God ; in short, that he hath opened the kingdom of lieaven to all believers. These are the truths which, by the grace of God, shall ever be dearer to me than life iteself ; shall' ever be placed next my heart as the throne whereon the Saviour himself shall sit, to sway all its motions, and reduce that world of iniquity and rebellion to a state of filial and af
fectionate obedience to the will of the Most Holy.
“ These, my dear cousin, are the truths to which by nature we are enemies--they debase the sinner, and exilt the Saviour, to a degree which the pride of our hearts (till almighty grace subdues them) is determined never to allow. May the Almighty reveal his Son in our hearts continually more and more, and teach us. to increase in love towards him continually, for having given us the unspeakable riches of Christ.”
March 11, 1767.
(No. 4. ) « A letter from your
brother Frederic brought me yesterday the most afflicting intelligence that has reached me these many years. I pray to God to comfort you, and to enable you to sustain this heavy stroke with that resignation to his will, which none but Himself can give, and which he gives to none but his own children. How blessed and happy is your lot, my dear friend, beyond the common lot of the greater part of mankind ; that you know what it is to draw near to God in prayer, and are acquainted with a throne of grace! You have resources in the infinite love of a dear Redeemer, which are withheld from millions : and the promises of God, which are yea and amen in Jesus, are sufficient to answer all your necessities, and to sweeten the bitterest cup which