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his nature, to yield obedience to his which the scriptures are silent. AcCreator, in every instance. He cording to God's glorious plan of would readily perceive, therefore, grace,

this world was meant to be that the covenant would impose no but the vestibule of the world to irksome obligation upon him, what come, and all conjectures about ever advantages it might secure to what it might have been, on another him and his descendants, in the plan, are baseless visions. event of his faithful compliance But were the descendants of with its condition. And that he Adam included in this covenant? did, in fact, acquiesce, is made per So we are taught from the beginfectly plain in the sequel of the sa ning to the end of the Bible; and cred history. The tree of life ap we verily believe, that right reason pears to have been the seal or me has no solid objection to bring morial of this covenant; the fruit against the doctrine. Paul, the of which was doubtless eaten, by apostle, in his epistle to the RoAdam and Eve, with religious so mans (ch. v.) tells us, that “ by one lemnity and thanksgiving.

We man's offence many were made sinhave a remark or two to make on ers—and that through the offence the penalty annexed, and to be in of one, judgment came upon all to Alicted, in case of man's disobe condemnation.” The apostle, here, dience. It is important to under manifestly alludes to the covenant stand its import. It is expressed of which we have been speaking. in language somewhat equivocal : And it seems to us, that no one “ In the day thou eatest thereof who is tolerably conversant with thou shalt surely die.” It is death, the writings of Moses and the proand that in a very extended and phets, and of Christ and his aposawful sense-temporal and spiri- tles, can hesitate to admit that the tual; which would, of course, be following answer to a question in eternal, were there 'no remedy pro our catechism, is founded on scripvided. But there is a remedy: and tural authority: “ As the covenant on those who accept it, the second was made with Adam, not only for death, or death eternal, can have himself, but for his posterity, all no power. To suppose that nothing mankind, descending from him by more than temporal death is meant, ordinary generation, sinned in him, would be to make the word of God and fell with him, in his first transof no effect; for Adam did not die gression.” that kind of death, the day that he But let us look at this matter in ate of the forbidden fruit—he con the light of reason, as there are tinued in this life more than nine those who prefer the less light to hundred years after he became a the greater.

Man was created a sinner. But, spiritually, he did die, moral agent, and he was designed and that immediately. He was fill to propagate his species. This

speed with shame-lost communion cies is of great consequence in the with God-was driven from para universe. It is presumble, theredise, and prohibited the fruit of the fore, that God would notice them tree of life. Whether the blessings in a way suited to their rank in the of the covenant would have been scale of creatures; and that in his enjoyed for ever in this world, or laws given to, as in his transactions whether, in case of Adam's fidelity, with, the parent of the race, he he and his posterity would have would have regard to the offspring. been removed, in due time, to ano Now the covenant in question was ther state adapted to a higher stage calculated to suit man's character of existence, are questions which it as a free, moral, and accountable were vain to agitate; for they are creature, and to secure important questions of mere curiosity, on benefits to the whole family, had

FOR THE PRESBYTERIAN MAGAZINE.

OF MY CONVERSION AND EARLIER

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the parent held fast his integrity. But he was fallible: he failed, and Some Account of the Religious Exthese advantages are forfeited. And ercises and I'rials of Mrs. E. J. from this sad event, are drawn most Written by herself.* of the plausible objections to the

In the contrary event, i. e. had the covenant been kept and the blessings been secured, the In the beginning of the year 1806, measure would have been esteemed there was a revival of religion in the good by every child of Adam. No place in which I then lived. At one would have had any objection this time, I was unusually engaged to being made happy, in conse in the pursuit of what young people quence of the representative cha are apt to call pleasure: and having racter of our great progenitor: and

heard that numbers of my acquaintdoes not this prove, that all objec

were under concern, some tions drawn from the unhappy is anxiety arose in my mind, lest the sue as it actually turned out, are cloud 'should come near and spoil wholly selfish and invalid ? Fur the comfort, which I fancied was to thermore, let it not be forgotten, be obtained in vanity and vexation. that Adam was placed in circum - Notwithstanding all my fears, that stances the most favourable that religion would interrupt me, I hoped can be conceived for retaining his to have grace to die by; for I wished moral rectitude, and for securing to die the death of the righteous. It the blessings of the covenant to his pleased the Lord not long after this descendants. On what ground can to show me my situation, by seewe flatter ourselves that we would ing one of my young companions have acted a better part, had we brought under powerful conviction, been placed in similar circum and by hearing her cry aloud for stances, and entrusted, each one in mercy. I saw my situation to be succession, with the care of his own equally, dangerous, but had not so virtue and happiness? Such consi great a sense of it as she had. Now derations as these should produce I began to prize religion too highly in our minds a quiet and filial ac to have it put by for any

other conquiescence in the counsels and de sideration. Now I prized the Chriscisions of our heavenly Father, in tian hope, and thought if I possessed relation to this momentous and in it, I would be content with any

situteresting transaction. “ The Lord ation. I thought I would be fixed is righteous in all his ways, and in my mind, if ever I did experiholy in all his acts." Let us jus ence religion, not to complain of tify him in our hearts, and take any pain, or trouble, or privation shame to ourselves. We are the de whatever. generate plants of a strange vine. I went to a minister's prayer By nature we bear the image of the meeting, in company with deacon earthy Adam; but, through grace, H. and family; and there realized we may be made like Christ, the heavenly Adam. Redeeming love * The following narrative of her relihas provided a remedy for the mi gious experience was written by a plain, series of our mournful apostacy.

practical, unlettered Christian woman, who is the consort of a pious farmer. It was un

dertaken at the request of a friend; and I “Joy to the world, the Saviour reigns ! apprehend will prove useful to many reLet earth receive her King;

newed persons, because it is a simple stateLet every heart prepare

him
room,

ment, of such a conversion as God often And heaven and nature sing."

works, and of such temptations as frequently occur. Had her case been more extra

ordinary, the history of it had been less W. N. calculated to do good to many.

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that I was not fit to be in

company thou goest out.” I had now no friend with the servants of the most high in heaven nor on earth. Hell was my God; yet I wanted to hear them so portion, without getting an interest much, that I should have been glad in Christ, speedily; for it appeared to have crawled under the hearth, to me that I never should have anfor that purpose. They seemed so other opportunity, if I neglected happy that I could hardly think this. them mindful of such a creature as My heart rose against the soveI was.

After the meeting was con reignty of God. It appeared hard cluded, one of them turned towards that I did not receive the blessing me, and with a pleasant voice said, of religion; I who had sought it so

we are praying for just such sin- long and so sincerely, while some ners as you.

* This was unexpect others who had been serious but a ed, and gave a little hope, that God few weeks or days were rejoicing in might hear prayer; and I made some the Lord. When this doctrine was efforts to pray myself; but God ap advanced, I would exclaim, «'tis peared a great way off'; and as for a hard saying, who can hear it?" confidence in Christ, I had none. Oh! I thought if it was in the power In the evening I heard a sermon

of such and such a minister, (of Mr. preached by the Rev. Mr. P. He P. for instance,) to give me a new told us that we must serve the Lord heart, I should soon have one; but with humble, willing, and obedient God appeared to be a great way off, hearts. 0, I thought I could never and an enemy, and I had no access attain to this; and might as well to him. Sometimes I gained counot try. The thought, that others rage by reflecting, that my parents had obtained the blessing, and pos and my grand parents were praying sibly I might, gave me a little cou people; and that I had been devoted rage. Never had I such balancings to the Lord in baptism. of mind before, and now, I was more On the whole, I laid up a consithan half determined to go home, derable store of good deeds, by readand not appear to be under convic ing, praying, and attending meettion. While I was in this state of ings frequently; and by abstaining mind, Deacon S. said, with firm, yet from the appearance of evil; though friendly countenance, " be waiting my fears of hell were almost insupat wisdom's gates and watching at portable. At length I heard a serthe posts of her doors.” My heart mon preached by the Rev. Mr. P., answered, I will. Then I formed in which he showed that all the unthe resolution, which, through the converted do, in religion, is done goodness of God, I have never vo out of selfish motives. I saw the luntarily broken.

force of it, and applied it to myself; From this time my convictions in yea, I thought the preacher meant creased. I saw myself under sen me, and felt so like a condemned tence of condemnation. The law criminal, that I durst not lift up my sounded in my ears, “cursed art head, all the forenoon, for I thought thou when thou goest out; and all the people knew my guilt. I cursed art thou when thou comest went home at noon. It was a day in.” When I went into the meet devoted by the church to fasting ing-house, this would meet me at and

prayer:

Some of the family the door, “cursed árt thou when took a little food, but I hesitated, thou goest in." My heart would for those words would come with answer, " yes, but I hope I shall not force upon my mind, “O sinner, be cursed when I come out." And tremble when you go to lay your if I did not think of it before, till I hand upon the bounty of God, and came to the door, yet it would meet think what it cost: nothing less me there, “ cursed art thou when than the blood of the Son of God.”

I went to meeting in the after a hope? I did not like to say yes, noon; and knew but little of the I could not say no. My prayer preaching, for the idea that all I had was that I might know that

my

Redone availed nothing, and that I deemer liveth. must give up my own doings, almost I think it was about the 1st of killed me. What shall I do? Where March 1806, that I embraced Christ can I go? Despair almost seized for my Saviour; but for two weeks me. Hope was about to flee for I did not know that Christ had acever. Oh, I envied the meanest cepted of me.

I did not allow mydog, because his existence was not self to say, I had a hope: for I was an eternal one. Oh that I had never sensible that it was vastly imporbeen born! Oh that God would an tant that I should make a good benihilate me, or show me some way ginning, should dig deep, and lay of escape! I was shut up like the the foundation strong. At length children of Israel at the Red Sea: I heard a stranger speak in confera mountain on this side; a mountain ence meeting of the offices of Christ; on that side; the enemy behind, the that he was a prophet to reveal the sea before. Cross it alone I could mind and will of God to us; a priest not, and I had none to help me. to atone for our sins, to satisfy diI thought that like the lepers, I vine justice, and open a way of must die where I was. However, I access to God; a king in ruling and drowsed a little in the night, and defending us from all his and our was alarmed when I awoke that I enemies. At this my heart was could sleep in so dangerous a condi much affected, tears flowed protion. I thought I would try once fusely. This is just such a Saviour more to make a surrender of myself as I need. He is the one altogether to the Lord.

lovely, the chiefest among ten thou

sand. What a Saviour! Then the “I can but perish if I go, I am resolved to try.”

Spirit took of the things that were

Christ's, and showed them unto me. And now with

my

whole heart and While I was returning home in the soul I begged the assistance of the evening, such a light broke into my good Spirit, and made a solemn, sin mind, that I hardly knew whether I cere, and unreserved surrender of

was in the body or not. The unmy soul and body, of all I have and searchable riches of the love of am, to the Lord Almighty, to be no Christ so enraptured my soul, that more my own.

If he pleased to I did not know, neither can I now save me, I should be saved; if not, tell, whether I stopped or continued I cannot help myself. A calm and walking. Joy, love, and wonder peace of mind succeeded, to which

filled my soul. When I arose, next before I was a stranger. I arose from morning, all things appeared new. my bed, and went about my work I walked out, and saw all creation as usual, not thinking of any change praising God. The show was fallfor some hours; when I began to ing, and it was God's snow. I ask myself, What am I doing? My thought that the stormy winds fulanxiety is gone. Is the Spirit clean filled his word. How easily could gone for ever! I read in Milton's I see God in all his works. This Paradise Lost the description of feast was too good to be enjoyed hell, but could not get my fears alone. I went into the house, and again. I tried to pray, but could looked around to speak my joys to not as before ask that the Lord

some one, yet did not feel a freewould take

my

feet out of the hor dom. But while I mused, the fire rible pit and miry clay, for a little burned, and I thought with Bunyan, hope sprang up in my inind. Some " I must tell my joys to the very times people would ask me, if I had crows" (if there had been any). Old

It was

things had indeed passed away, and Lord in mercy had permitted me to behold all things were new.

hope in him, and I doubted not but a day of the gladness of my heart. .

there was mercy

for him, if he would I went with willing feet to the near believe in Christ. “0, (says he) you est neighbour's, where was a profes are young, your heart is tender; sor of religion. As I was going, my and I am old, and my heart hard.” heart was drawn out towards God's While I stood looking at him, these children. Such a union I had never lines came into my mind.

• Befelt. My first words (after a hearty hold a man of three score and good morning) were, « aunt, do you ten years, upon a dying bed. He feel this union ?" Her answer was, has run his race, and got no grace; “ I think I do.” She appeared sur an awful sight indeed. If ever Í prised at my appearance, for she did saw the force of these lines, it was not know what had passed in my now. He looked distressed in body mind the night before. Now I en and mind; and had apparently but joyed the peace of God, that passeth a short time to live. He asked me, all understanding. Some said “ Ah!

if it was not an awful sight, to see you will get into the dark, and doubt such an old man as he, going out of all this." I could not comprehend the world, without an interest in what they meant. I did not know Christ? It was so true that I knew what I should doubt about. My not what to say; but I made him mind was not thinking of my own

this answer.

“ Your case is not so good estate. I rejoiced that the dreadful as if you was going out of Lord God Omnipotent did reign, the world stupid, or in the belief of and thought all might rejoice in this, false doctrines.” He replied, “I nor should I want cause of joy as once believed in very bad doctrine, long as the Lord reigned. “The or rather, held it up for argument Lord reigneth, let the earth re sake. But now, thank the Lord, I joice," was my text to think upon, do not believe in it. That doctrine from morning till night. Now in will not do to die by.” I told him stead of complaining of the sove of the woman that did but touch the reignty of God, I saw that if God hem of Christ's garment and was was not a sovereign, not one soul made whole. “I know it,” says he, would come to him. Now I loved “ but she had faith. I am afraid I Christians, though ever so disagree shall die before my sins are pardonable in nature, if they bore the re ed.” I left him in this situation, semblance of Christ. They appear begging the prayers of all God's ed nearer to me than the nearest children. I never saw him again, natural relations.

but heard he found relief a day or The Bible was truly a new book two before his death. This man was to me, and my understanding was apparently a strong Universalist, opened, as I read, and conversed and argued powerfully to support upon God's holy word. I conversed this deceitful doctrine, that could with many friends that enjoyed re do nothing but torment him when ligion; and to those who knew no he most needed support. I returnthing of it, I must tell the happi ed home solemn, exclaiming, ness that was to be found in submitting to the Lord, and in the union “Why was I made to hear his voice,

And enter while there's room, I felt to Christians. About a week

While others make a wretched choice after, an old man, in the last stages And rather starve than come.” of a consumption, sent for me to come and see him. I went, and Now the doctrine of free salvafound him very low. He said, “I tion was a pleasant theme for me to heard that yoù are happy, having dwell upon. I thought all might be found Christ.” I told him, that the saved, if they would. I thought Vol. I.

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