sider them as sinful, except I yield to and harbour them. This evening, at the prayermeeting, there was almost constantly something of the world presented to my mind. I looked to the Strong for strength, knowing that of myself I am nothing; and though I had not power to prevent Satan from presenting his temptations, yet, blessed be God, I had the power to resist. I perceive that if I am faithful in the hour of temptation, so far from being injured, I am benefited. I thus understand more of the devices of Satan, and know better how to overcome, and am enabled to turn to my advantage what was designed by the enemy for my destruction.

"21st.-I frequently feel much blessed in the singing of God's praises; and when I was able, I used much to practise it; but my lungs are now in that state that I cannot do it with safety. Yet I bless God, I can and do sing in my heart; and, if faithful, I shall sing his praises in that world, where there will be no sickness, nor pain, nor any other thing to disturb our peace, or allay our joy.

"24th.-I feel, for the sake of Christ, that

I am saved, saved fully, saved this moment, saved from the guilt, the power, the pollution, the remains of sin. Notwithstanding all the Lord has done for and in me, I have still need to come to the same Saviour, and the same fountain, not only on the Sabbathdays, not only every day, and every hour of every day, but every moment; yes, I am saved by the moment, and

What I have now will not do for the next hour. I must still come, still continue to believe; and come too as I am, poor, helpless, and dependent. While I thus come, the Lord will never cast me out, or send me empty away. His hands are full of blessings; he is ever waiting; the only fitness he requires is, that I feel my need; and thus coming to the Saviour, all my wants are now supplied. I am not anxious about to-morrow: I am saved now; and if I see the morrow, I may be saved then also, by coming in the same way to the same willing Saviour. Well; I am saved thus far. In the remainder of my pilgrimage, doubtless, I shall meet with obstacles and difficulties; but as long

as I continue to cleave to the Saviour, to come out of myself, and rely on him alone, I am safe, and nothing can harm

me.

"Oct. 1st, 2d, 3d.-Each of these days I have been very unwell; but in each I have been much blessed. Perhaps never since I began to serve God have I had more delightful

seasons.

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I have put these three days together, because they have been just alike, every thing that could be desired; happy, happy, always happy in God. I have been led to examine myself; and I am perfectly convinced that I was never so far on in the as I am now; never knew and enjoyed so much of God, never was so much like him, never so dead to the world, and never so determined to serve God, and to continue unto the end. I believe I can say, that, in some humble measure, I am making progress in the divine life.

"14th.-While I thank God for his continued goodness, and for being enabled to approach him as a Father, I feel sharply, when I reflect on the short time since I yielded him my heart. Had I yielded when first he strove with me, and been faithful

until now, how holy I should have been, how much more like God! Indeed, I know not what I might have been, nor what I have lost, had I early sought and served the Lord. But the past I cannot recal: by God's grace, I will improve the future. Lord, quicken me according to thy word; give me a keener appetite for spiritual food, and feed me with the bread of life.

"30th.-Eternity and eternal things occupy a large share of my thoughts. This has been the case especially of late; and I believe my pace has been quickened, my diligence renewed, my desires increased after more of the mind of Christ, my peace and joy through believing abounding more and more; and, blessed be God, I trust I am ripening for the heavenly world. I generally think that my death will be rather sudden; and often, as to-night, that it is near at hand. My health of late has been worse, and this day I was very unwell. When I retired to my bed-room, I again began to spit blood, feeling otherwise very ill. Well,' I thought, the time is at length arrived, and now am I going to be with Jesus.'

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I took out my pencil, and wrote on the opposite page the following:

666

Thursday, at midnight.—I am entirely resigned to the will of God. My complaint assumes a serious aspect; but, glory be to God, all is well. Perhaps I shall be in heaven before the morning. I am going to be with Jesus: I can rejoice in him, and do feel him precious.'

"This I wrote with tears of joy, that if I were found dead in the morning, which I rather anticipated, my friends might know with what views and feelings I met the last enemy. I cannot sufficiently praise God for the help and support which he affords me at all times, especially in the time of need. I still feel that I am nothing; and my salvation, from first to last, I ascribe to him.

"Nov.1st.-I feel a fear, lest in the approaching St. Just feast, any who profess to be the followers of Christ should in works deny him. I have thought of them much, and have offered up many fervent prayers on their behalf. Next to my own salvation and that of my family, the cause of God and the continued preservation of those who believe in