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blessed one, by far the best; but I hope and expect that, if spared, the next will be better still the path of the just shineth more and more. May my path so shine, and may my last hour bring glory to my God. At the conclusion of this day, when I retired to rest, my cup was full: I was as happy as I well could be, and remain in the flesh.

"June 17th.-I have had serious thoughts of death and eternity, the mystery of which I believe will soon be developed to me. I can from my heart say, that I rejoice to think my dissolution near. Yet never did I feel my own weakness, nothingness, and unworthiness as at present; nor did I ever perceive such a fulness in Christ, and such a willingness to bestow it freely upon me; nor did I ever experience such a desire after all the fulness of God.

"18th.-Felt and enjoyed much of the love of God, and a measure of his fulness. I know that I am his, that I now stand accepted through Jesus Christ, and that the carnal mind is not only subdued but destroyed. I have many difficulties to encounter, but by grace I stand.

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"25th. The house of clay is mouldering into dust, but my soul is in a constant calm.

"July 1st. The last three days I have been considerably worse. Glory be to God, I am going home. Blessed home! Glorious home! But I wait the Lord's time.

'I shall behold his face,

I shall his power adore,

And sing the wonders of his grace
For evermore.'

It is a cheering thought, that I was never so near heaven. May the Lord keep me faithful.

"3d.-Trials from various quarters, which I believe have tended to my spiritual improvement.

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5th.-My mind is blessedly stayed on God, and kept in perfect peace. 'Not a cloud doth arise;' no, not one. May my spiritual horizon be ever clear, and may my sun go down in a cloudless sky. Amen.

"9th-11th.-Were I to write daily, which I am hardly able to do, my language would be praise. Yes, I praise God for his innumerable and undeserved mercies, which

are new every morning, and repeated every evening. To recount them would be to tell the stars, or to number the sands on the sea-shore. I am laid under infinite obligations, and I ought to love much, for I have much forgiven. Bless the Lord, I am full of joy and of love: and it rejoices my heart to think of heaven, my home; especially as I think that I shall soon be there.

"Aug. 5th. When I appear better in health, my mind is filled with peace: if, on the contrary, I am worse, and seem near death, which is frequently the case, still there is peace within. Nothing disturbs me; whatever happens, and under all circumstances, my soul is filled with perfect tranquillity and joy. Whatever God permits, I believe will be for the best; and I therefore receive every thing from his hands with thankfulness. Yes, I can and do thank him for affliction, which I verily and certainly believe is better for me than health. God is love."

A letter addressed by Mr. Trezise to the Rev. John Hobson, who was at this time about to leave the Penzance Circuit, is so

remarkable for simplicity and affection, that an extract from it will perhaps not be unacceptable.

"As you are soon to leave us, permit me, before we thus separate, to enter into my views and feelings, my hopes and desires, and to relate to you in writing the present state of my mind. I have chosen to do so in this way, because I thought I should do it with more frankness and simplicity.

"Doubtless you are already aware that I am one of the many in this place, whom you have been the happy instrument in the hands of God of turning from darkness to light, and from the power of Satan to serve the living and true God; and I trust we shall be your crown of rejoicing in the day of the Lord Jesus.

"I not only know that God hath power on earth to forgive sins, but to cleanse from all unrighteousness. I enjoy the perfect love of God, which casteth out all fear. I am not merely the Lord's, but his altogether, and his love fills and rules my heart. I bless God, I feel that the carnal mind is not only subdued but destroyed. Covered is

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my unrighteousness, nor spot of guilt or pollution remains on or in me. God is love; and he that dwelleth in love dwelleth in God, and God in him.' This is my experience; and, with Peter, I can appeal to the Searcher of hearts, and say, 'Lord, thou knowest all things, thou knowest that I love thee,' love thee supremely, love thee with all my heart. And hereby we know that we dwell in him, and he in us, because he hath given us of his Spirit. Of myself, I am weak, helpless, ignorant, and unworthy; but Christ is made unto me 'wisdom, righteousness, sanctification, and redemption.' He is all in all.

"You know that I am afflicted in body, but it has been for the good of my soul. I can say, with David, 'It is good for me that I have been afflicted:' it has made me more humble, and my walk with God has been closer. I have given myself without reserve into his gracious hands; and I know that all things shall continue to work together for good, while I continue to love God. I do not wish for better health, or a lengthened life. I am content to live or die, as the Lord shall see good. For me to live is

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