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what a great respect they had for me and my friends; many of them going out all day and night after him. As soon as I had refreshed myself, I went and visited my parishioners from house to house to return them thanks for their kindness to my friends. An unusual joy appeared in their faces at my unexpected return, and they were ready to say, "How beautiful are the feet of him that bringeth the glad tidings of salvation !" At evening prayers (and a very large congregation was present) I returned my dear hearers hearty thanks for the late instance of their sincere affection, I publicly exhorted my friend that was lost to show forth his thankfulness not only with his lips but with his life, and desired their prayers to God for me that I might now more and more devote myself to my blessed master's service, and study daily to purify my corrupt nature, that I migh: be made an instrument under him of winning their souls to God.

Wednesday, August 23. A necessity was laid on me to-day to express my resentment against infidelity by refusing to read the burial office over the most professed unbeliever I ever yet met with. God was pleased to visit him with a lingering illness, in which time I went to see him frequently. Particularly about five weeks ago, I asked him what religion he was of, he answered, "Religion was divided into so many sects he knew not which to choose." Another time, I offered to pray with him, but he would not accept it, upon which I resolved to go see him no more; but being told two days before he died that he had an inclination to see me, I went to him again, and after a little conversation I put to him the following questions: "Do you believe Jesus Christ to be God, the one mediator between God and man!" He said, "I believe Christ was a good man." "Do you believe the Holy Scriptures?" "I believe," replied he, "something of the Old Testament, the New I do not believe at all." "Do you believe, sir, a judgment to come?" He turned himself about, and replied, "I know not what to say to that." "Alas!" said I, "sir, if all these things should be true Which words, I believe,

gave him concern, for he seemed after to ne very uneasy, grew delirious, and departed in a day or two. Unhappy man! how quickly was he convinced that all I said was true. Now he and I are of one mind. The day after his decease he was carried to the ground, and I refused to read the office over him, but went to the grave and told the people what had passed between him and me, warned them against infidelity, and asked them whether I could safely say, as our hope is this our brother doth." Upon which, I believe, they were thoroughly satisfied that I had done right. God grant this may be a warning to surviving unbelievers.

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Thursday, August 24. This day went to Highgate with a friend or two more, and read prayers, preached and baptized a child, and catechised in a house lately erected by the inhabitants. For upon my sending a master to teach their children, one offered to give me a part of his lot, and the rest to give their labour. Accordingly I accepted of it, found materials, and to-day it was fit to preach in, and be made a school-house of. The children, though foreigners, answered admirably well, which gave me great hopes that the other foreign children of the colony may also learn our English tongue when a proper master is provided. service we refreshed ourselves together, thanked our good God, and eat our bread with gladness of heart.

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Sunday, August 27. God having now shown both me and my friends that it was his will I should return for a while to England, this afternoon I preached my farewell sermon, to the great grief of my dear parishioners, for their hearts I found were very full as well as mine, which they expressed by shedding many tears. But a sensible alteration appeared in their countenances, when I promised them solemnly before God to return as soon as possible. May God enable me to perform my promise, and prepare my way before me.

The weather was exceedingly hot, and the greatness of the congregation made it still hotter, but God enabled me to preach with power. Thanks be to God for the strength he gives me through Jesus Christ.

Monday, August 28. This being the day of my departure, it was mostly spent in taking leave of my flock, who expressed their affection now more than ever. For they came to me from the morning to the time I left them with tears in their eyes, wishing me a prosperous voyage and safe return, and gave me other tokens of their love. For they brought me wine, ale, cale, coffee, tea, and other things proper for my passage, and their love seemed without dissimulation.

About four in the afternoon I went into the boat provided for me by Mr Causton, who, with the recorder, came to my house and took their leave. A great number of people came to the Bluff, and wished me a good voyage with all their souls, and a speedy return! I thanked them, and having desired their prayers, blessed them in the name of God, and took my leave.

My heart was full, and I took the first opportunity of venting it by prayers and tears. I think I never parted from a place with more regret; for America in my opinion is an excellent school to learn Christ in; and I have great hopes some good will come out of Savannah, because the longer I continued there, the larger the congregations grew; and I scarce knew a night, though we had divine service twice a day, when the church-house has not been near full. A proof this, I hope, that God has yet spiritual and temporal blessings in store for them. Hasten, O Lord, that blessed time!

CHARLES-TOWN.

Arrived last night here, and preached twice to-day, I hope with some good effect. The bishop of London's commissary, the rev. Mr Garden, a good soldier of Jesus Christ, received me in a most christian manner.

He and several others offered me a lodging, and were more than civil to me. How does God raise me up friends wherever I go! Who is so good a God as our God!

Was much pleased with the neatness of the buildings, and the largeness of the place. The church is very beautiful, and the inhabitants seemed to be excellently

well settled. God's judgments have been late abroad amongst them oy the spreading of the small pox. I hope they will learn righteousness!

Monday, September 4. Was much delighted with a packet of letters I received from Savannah, not only as they were a proof of the writer's affection for me, but also that the Holy Ghost was effectually moving on their souls.

Saturday, September 9. Received another comfortable packet of letters from Savannah friends, and was soon hurried on board, the wind being fair for sailing, Great kindness has been shown me at Charles-town, some presents made me, and there was a general and earnest expectation of my preaching on Sunday. But God seeth not as man seeth. Father, thy will be done!

On board the Mary, captain Coc, commander, bound from Charles-town to England.

Saturday, September 9. About noon came on board with great composure of mind, and thought of my absent friends, settled my things, wrote my journal, and finished some other matters. The wind being fair, weighed anchor, and set sail about five in the evening. The Lord send us a prosperous voyage, and bring us in his appointed time to the haven where we would be!

Saturday, September 16. Had contrary winds all the week, and got but a few leagues from Charles-town, yet God showed me great mercies; for he enabled me to write several things, and correct others. I have been but a little sea-sick; and though I have not had ny clothes off, and lay upon deck or on a chest every night, yet the goodness of God keeps me healthy and strong, and gives me a feeling possession of his holy spirit. My sphere of action is now contracted into a very narrow compass. There are but few souls on board, and all that I can do is to read public prayers, and add a word of exhortation twice every day, and catechise those I brought with me. The captain and all are very civil, my christian friends have been much upon my heart, and caused me some dejections, but

God was my comforter. Had I my own will, I could wish myself a speedy passage, that I may return the sooner to those few sheep I have left at Savannah; but God knows best, and this retirement, I hope, will break my will, purify my heart, and fit me for the great work that lies before me. Even so Lord Jesus, Amen, and Amen.

Saturday, September 23. Still God is pleased to send us contrary winds, except one night about the middle of the week.-However, he enables me to give thanks-and great reason have I so to do for the Holy Spirit has been with me of a truth.

I have observed, that before God calls me to a public work, he always sends me into some retirement, but never to so great a one as now.-A sign this, I hope, that a greater work is yet behind. Lord, fit and prepare me for it!

My mind, blessed be God, has been composed and easy. Only the absence of my friends, now and then struck a damp upon my spirits.-But the friend of all is with and in me, and he by his spirit, I trust,_will supply the want of their dear company. Amen, Lord Jesus, Amen.

Sunday 24, Monday, September 25. Was oppressed much in spirit these two days. The wind was contrary, and the sea wrought and was tempestuous; but blessed be God, he enabled me to be resigned to his will, this outward and inward trial being only what was to be expected after my late assistances. We must not always be upon the mount in this life.

Ever since Monday evening, God has been pleased to send us fair winds, particularly to-day, when our ship has sailed seven miles an hour, blessed be God.

I have been chiefly busied about writing letters, to engage more labourers, and to get contributions for my poor flock.

Blessed be God! he has made me frequently rejoice in spirit, and now quite reconciles me to my present retirement. When shall I have no will but God's?

Sunday, October 1. Had very little sleep all night,

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