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Monday, March 27. Last night God was pleased to take away a black boy of captain W.'s after he had been ill of a violent fever for some days.-He was never baptized, but I had a commission from his master, who seemed much affected at his death, to instruct and baptize him, if it had pleased the most high that he should recover; but God saw fit to order it otherwise. His holy will be done. About ten in the morning he was wrapt up in a hammock and thrown into the sea. I could not read the office over him being unbaptized, but captain W. ordered the drum to beat, and I exhorted all the soldiers, sailors, &c. as God gave me utterance, to remember their Creator in the days of their youth, and to prepare for that time when the sea should give up its dead, and all nations be called together to appear before the Son of God. Oh, that they may be made wise by it, that they may lay to heart what has been said, and practically consider their latter end.

Had our blessed Lord been here, I believe he would have wept to see what havoc sin hath made amongst us. Do thou, Lord, teach us so to number our days, that we may apply our hearts unto wisdom.

Tuesday, March 28. This day captain M. began to come at six in the morning and join in prayers on deck, instead of having prayers in the great cabin. Surely our soldiers will be without excuse, since their captain leads so good an example; blessed be God, I have no reason to complain of them, for they come very regularly twice a day to prayer, and an oath seems to be a strange thing amongst most of them. Many marks of a sound conversion appear in several aboard, and we live in perfect harmony and peace, loving and beloved of one another. Surely, my friends, your prayers are heard. Continue instant in them, and you shall see greater things than these: for God delights in the prosperity of his servants.

Wednesday, March 29. Sailed near a hundred and sixty miles every twenty-four hours, for several

days, most delightfully pleasant weather; and had much of God's presence amongst us.

Heaven is, dear Lord, where'er thou art.
Oh, never then from us depart;
For to my soul 'tis hell to be

But for one moment void of thee!

Thursday, March 30. Had still more proofs of a thorough conversion being wrought in some of the ship. I hope many of us shall have reason to bless God for coming on board the Whitaker. God grant, while I preach to others, I myself may not be a cast-away. But God is love, and he will not, if my eye be single, let his blessings destroy me. O, let thy power be exerted in preserving me, even me always, Ő my Saviour!

Renew thy likeness, Lord, in me,
Lowly and gentle may I be;

No charms but these to thee are dear:
No anger may'st thou ever find,

No pride in my unruffled mind,
But faith and heaven-born peace be there.

A patient, a victorious mind,
A life that all things cast behind,
Springs forth obedient to thy call;

A heart that no desire can move,

But still t'adore, and praise, and love,
Give me, my Lord, my life, my all!

Friday, March 31. This being the crucifixion of our blessed Lord, I preached a sermon on the penitent thief, and I hope God gave it his blessing. We began prayers later than usual, so that before I had done, darkness came upon us, which put me in mind of that darkness which overwhelmed the world, when the God of Nature suffered. Oh, that our hearts may rend like the rocks, and our souls arise from the death of sin, as the bodies of those did from their graves who appeared to many in the holy city, after our Lord's

Jesurrection!

Had a good instance of the benefit of breaking

children's wills betimes. Last night going between decks (as I do every night) to visit the sick and to examine my people, I asked one of the women to bid her little boy that stood by her, say his prayers: she answered, his elder sister would, but she could not make him. Upon this, I bid the child kneel down before me, but he would not until I took hold of its two feet and forced it down. I then bid it say the Lord's Prayer, (being informed by his mother he could say it if he would,) but he obstinately refused, until at last, after I had given it several blows, it said its prayers as well as could be expected, and I gave it some figs for a reward. And this same child, though not above four years of age, came to-night on deck, when the other children came to say their prayers to my friend H. and burst out into a flood of tears, and would not go away until he had said his too. I mention this as a proof of the necessity of early correction: children are sensible of it sooner than parents imagine. And if they would but have resolution to break their wills thoroughly when young, the work of conversion would be much easier, and they would not be so troubled with perverse children when they are old.

Saturday, April 1. Wonderfully pleasant sailing still, and what was infinitely better, had reason to think several went forward in the great work of their salvation. Oh, that we may be buried with Christ in baptism, and rise with him. to newness of life!

Sunday, April 2. Rose early this morning, and joined in spirit with my dear absent friends, who were receiving the holy eucharist, and celebrating our blessed Lord's resurrection. I find my not being in priest's orders is a great hinderance to my ministry, which will oblige me to return to England as soon as possible. The good Lord prepare me for that second imposition of hands!

Preached a sermon in the afternoon, on Phil. ii. 10. "That I may know him, and the power of his resurrection."-Oh, that we may all experience it in our hearts! for without it, Christ as to us, is dead in vain.

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April 3. Had some farther conversation with the young gentleman whose conversion I mentioned before, and who I hope is really quickened from above. He told me he used to wonder to hear me talk that all our thoughts, words, and actions, ought to be dedicated unto God, but now he perceived what I said to be true. How does the new nature give us new notions! It seems a difficult task to the natural man to turn his whole life into one continual sacrifice, but the spiritual man does it with ease: he feels a divine attraction in his soul, which as sensibly draws his heart towards God, as the loadstone attracts the needle. Draw us then, O God, and our affections will ascend up after thee!

About eleven went on board the Lightfoot, prayed with a sick man, preached my sermon on the penitent thief. Afterwards went on board the Amy, catechised the children, dined on a dolphin, had some useful conversation, preached to the soldiers, returned home about six, read prayers, visited the sick, interceded for friends, and went to bed praising and blessing God.

April 7. Great enlargement of heart has been given me for these four days last past, particularly to-day, in which God has vouchsafed me much of his presence and assisting grace; observed still stronger signs of a thorough conversion being wrought on some on aboard; had most delightful sailing, and every thing as pleasant as this vain world can afford. These are preparatives for future trials: welcome in the name of God: he will uphold me. If it were not for the corruptions of my own heart, which are continually stirring, what have I to disturb my peace; but as long as those Amalekites remain in my soul, I shall never be perfectly at ease. Lord, keep me but striving, and I shall at last be more than conqueror, through Jesus Christ that

loved me.

April 8. Went on board the Lightfoot and Amy, and preached to the soldiers of each ship, dined with colonel C. who continued extremely civil, and at my return found the sick increase upon my hands. But

few in the ship escape. The good Lord make all their beds in their sickness!

Had much of the presence of God with me to-day. The heat uncommonly temperate, as it has been for some time, and the ship sailed all day as though she was carried on the wings of the wind. Preached two sermons besides my exposition at six in the morning, and I hope God set his seal to them. Was well pleased to hear by my friend H. (who is very active in carrying things to the sick) that the poor people between decks prayed heartily for me.

And now indeed we live more comfortably in the great cabin than can easily be imagined. We talk of little else but God and Christ. God has greatly blessed the "Country Parson's Advice to his Parishioners,” that excellent book; and scarce a word is to be heard among us when together, but what has reference to our fall in the first, and our new birth in the second Adam, the Lord from heaven; so that we all, I trust, are resolved to put my afternoon's text into practice, and are determined not to know any thing save Jesus Christ and him crucified. Grant this, O Father, for thy dear Son's sake. Oh, that I knew how to be thankful! Oh, that heaven and earth would join with me in praising God!

I would not, Lord, alone

Thy praises celebrate;

I'd call the blessed angels down,

I'd move the world's united state,

'Till they in fervent songs thy gracious acts relate.

April 10, 11. Spent good part of these two days in mending my nets. Had exceeding pleasant weather. Some more of the sailors were convicted of sin, and others send notes to be prayed for, and give thanks as regularly as in any parish. Blessed be God, we live very comfortably.

April 12 or 13. To-day captain W. caught a dolphin, which was most beautiful when drawn out of the water, but its colour soon changed. Just so is man; he flourishes for a little while; but when once death

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