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such a sight. I spoke, blessed be God, with great freedom; but thought all the while, as I do continually when I ascend the mount, that hereafter I shall suffer as well as speak for my Master's sake. Lord, strengthen me against that hour. Lord, I believe, O help my unbelief! that thy grace will be more than sufficient for me.

In the evening I expounded at Baldwin-street society, but could not get up to the room without the utmost difficulty, the entry and court were so much thronged. Blessed be God, the number of hearers much increases; and as my day is, so is my strength. To-night I returned home much more refreshed in my spirits than in the morning when I went out. I was full of joy, and longed to be dissolved, and to be with Jesus Christ; but I have a baptism first to be baptized with. Father, thy will be done. This has been a sabbath indeed to my soul!

Monday, March 5. Had the pleasure of having many, whom God has touched by my ministry, come to me, inquiring about the new birth. At eleven, I preached with uncommon freedom and power at Newgate, and collected thirty-nine shillings for the poor prisoners; aad being invited by many colliers, at three in the afternoon I went to a place called the Fishponds, on another side of Kingswood, where about two thousand were gathered together. The sight pleased me much; and having no better place to stand upon, the wall was my pulpit, and, I think, I never spoke with greater power. My preaching in the fields may displease some timorous bigoted men; but I am thoroughly persuaded it pleases God; and why should I fear any thing else?

At my return home, I was much refreshed with the sight of two pious friends. After some conversation, they went with me to a society, where I prayed and expounded for above an hour, and then spent the remainder of the evening with them and many other christian brethren, in warming one another's hearts by mutual exhortation, and singing of psalms. Oh, that sensualists knew the pleasure of a religious conversa

tion! I am sure they would no longer eat husks with swine, but return home to feed on the fatted calf.

NEW PASSAGE.

Tuesday, March 9. Having left my dear brother Hutchins, whom I sent to for that purpose to supply my place during my absence; after many kind salutations, psalms, and prayers on both sides, Mr Seward, myself, and another brother, took leave of our Bristol friends, and got to the New Passage in a short time. Here we staid and refreshed ourselves, and endeavoured to go off in the boat about noon; but the wind not permitting us, we took this opportunity of writing to many of our christian friends, and exhorting them to lay hold on Jesus Christ by faith.

At the inn where we put up there was an unhappy clergyman, who, so far had his corruptions dominion over him, would not go over in the passage boat because I went in it. Alas! thought I, this very temper would make heaven itself unpleasant to that man, if he saw me there. I was likewise told, that in the public kitchen, he charged me with being a dissenter; when a little after, as I passed by, I saw him shaking his elbows over a gaming table. I heartily wish those who charge me causelessly with schism, and being righteous overmuch, would consider that the canon of our church forbids our clergy to frequent taverns, to play at cards or dice, or any other unlawful games. Their indulging themselves in these things, is a stumbling block to thousands.

After supper, in the evening, I called the family of the inn together, and was pleased to see near twenty come to hear the word. God enabled me to speak and pray with power, and having dispersed some extracts from our church homilies amongst them, I and my friends went early to bed, being apprized that we were to be called up betimes. Blessed be God, for any opportunity of doing good.

CARDIFF.

Wednesday, March 8. Arose before twelve at night, sung psalms, and prayed; and the wind being fair, we

had a speedy passage over to the Welsh shore. Our business being in haste, God having, of his good providence, sent one to guide us, we rode all night, stopped at Newport to refresh ourselves, where we met with two friends, and reached Cardiff about eleven in the morning.

The town, I soon found, was apprehensive of my coming; and therefore, whilst I was giving a word of exhortation to some poor people at the inn, who hanged upon me to hear the word, Mr Seward went to ask for the pulpit but being denied, we pitched on the townhall, which Mr Seward got by his interest; and at four in the afternoon, I preached from the judge's seat to about four hundred hearers. Most were very attentive; but some mocked; however, I offered Jesus Christ freely even to them, and should have rejoiced if they would have accepted of him; but their foolish hearts were hardened. Lord, make them monuments of thy free grace.

After I came from the seat, I was much refreshed with the sight of my dear brother Howel Harris; whom, though I knew not in person, I have long since loved in the bowels of Jesus Christ, and have often felt my soul drawn out in prayer in his behalf.

"A burning and shining light has he been in those parts; a barrier against profaneness and immorality, and an indefatigable promoter of the true gospel of Jesus Christ. About three or four years God has inclined him to go about doing good. He is now above twenty-five years of age. Twice he has applied, being every way qualified, for holy orders; but he was refused, under a false pretence, that he was not of age, though he was then twenty-two years and six months. About a month ago he offered himself again, but was put off. Upon this, he was, and is still resolved to go on in his work; and indefatigable zeal has he shown in his Master's service. For these three years, as he told me from his own mouth, he has discoursed almost twice every day for three or four hours together; not

authoritatively, as a minister, but as a private person, exhorting his christian brethren. He has been, I think, in seven counties, and has made it his business to go to wakes, &c. to turn people from such lying vanities. Many alehouse people, fiddlers, harpers, &c. Demetrius like, sadly cry out against him for spoiling their business. He has been made the subject of numbers of sermons, has been threatened with public prosecutions, and had constables sent to apprehend him. But God has blessed him with inflexible courage. Instantaneous strength has been communicated to him from above; and he still continues to go on from conquering to conquer. He is of a most catholic spirit, loves all that love our Lord Jesus Christ, and therefore, he is styled by bigots, a dissenter. He is contemned by all that are lovers of pleasure more than lovers of God; but God has greatly blessed his pious endeavours. Many call and own him as their spiritual father, and I believe would lay down their lives for his sake. He discourses generally in a field; but at other times in a house, from a wall, a table, or any thing else. He has established near thirty societies in South Wales, and still his sphere of action is enlarged daily. He is full of faith, and the Holy Ghost."

When I first saw him, my heart was knit closely to him. I wanted to catch some of his fire, and gave him the right hand of fellowship with my whole heart. After I had saluted him, and given a warm exhortation to a great number of people who followed me to the inn, we spent the remainder of the evening in taking sweet counsel together, and telling one another what God had done for our souls. My heart was still drawn out towards him more and more. A divine and strong sympathy seemed to be between us, and I was resolved to promote his interest with all my might. Accordingly we took an account of the several societies, and agreed on such measures as seemed most conducive to promote the common interest of our Lord. Blessed be God, there seems to be a noble spirit gone out into

Wales; and I believe, ere long, there will be more visible fruits of it. What inclines me strongly to think so is, that the partition wall of bigotry and party zeal is broken down, and ministers and teachers of different communions, join with one heart and one mind to carry on the kingdom of Jesus Christ. The Lord make all the christian world thus minded. For till this is done, I fear, we must despair of any great reformation in the church of God. After much comfortable and encouraging discourse with each other, we kneeled down and prayed, and great enlargement of heart God was pleased to give me in that duty.

This done, we eat a little supper, and then, after singing a hymn, we went to bed, praising and blessing God for bringing us face to face. I doubt not but

Satan envied our happiness. But, I hope, by the help of God we shall make his kingdom shake. God loves to do great things by weak instruments, that the power may be of God, and not of man.

Thursday, March 9. Was much refreshed by last night's rest, and spent the beginning of the morning in prayer and private discourse with the members of the religious society. About ten, according to appointment, I went to the town-hall, and preached for about an hour and a half to a large assembly of people. My dear brother Howel Harris sat close by me. I did not observe any scoffers within; but without, some were pleased to honour me so far, as to trail a dead fox, and hunt it about the hall. But, blessed be God, my voice prevailed. God gave me great strength, and I could have heartily wished all such scoffers had been present, that I might have offered them salvation through Jesus Christ. This being done, I went, with many of my hearers, amongst whom were two worthy dissenting ministers, and my brother Howel Harris, to public worship; and in the second lesson were these remarkable words, " And the high priests, and the scribes, and the chief of the people sought to destroy him; but they could not find what they might do to him: for all the people were attentive to hear him "

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