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shall I come to rejoice in other's gifts and graces as much as in my own! I am resolved to wrestle with Jesus Christ, by faith and prayer till he thus blesses

me.

Saturday, January 6. Preached six times this week, and should have preached a seventh time, but one minister would not permit me; which caused me to pray for him most earnestly. Blessed be God I can say I love mine enemies.

Expounded twice or thrice every night this week. The Holy Ghost so powerfully worked upon my hearers, pricking their hearts, and melting them into such floods of tears, that a spiritual man said, he never saw the like before. God is with me of a truth. Adored be his unmerited goodness, I find his grace quickening me more and more every day. My understanding is more enlightened, my affections more enflamed, and my heart full of love towards God and man. Oh! that the scoffers of these last days were not only almost, but altogether such as I am, except these in-dwelling corruptions!

Sunday, January 7. Preached twice to-day, and expounded with great power to three societies, one of which I never visited before. God grant I may pursue the method of expounding and praying extempore. I find God blesses it more and more.

Had another love-feast, and spent the whole night in prayer and thanksgiving at Fetter-lane. There was a great pouring out of the spirit amongst the brethre:: but I cannot say I was so full of joy as the last nigh: we spent together.

Monday, January 8. Though I sat up all night, yet God carried me through the work of the day with about an hour's sleep. Expounded in the evening, and confuted a virulent opposer of the doctrine of the new birth, and justification by faith only; but what can be said to those that will not be convinced; Lord, open thou their hearts and eyes.

Spent the remainder of the evening with our bands, which are little combinations of six or more christians

meeting together to compare their experiences. Build ye up one another, even as also ye do. Confess your faults one to another, and pray for one another, that ye may be healed.

Tuesday, January 10. Staid at home again to day to talk with those that came to consult me, and found that God had awakened several, and excited in them a hunger and thirst after righteousness by my sermon on the power of Christ's resurrection: and have ye received the Holy Ghost? Every day I hear of somebody or another quickened to a sense of the divine life. Oh, what abundant reason have I to be thankful!

This evening I preached a sermon at Great St Helen's, for erecting a church for the Saltzburghers, and collected thirty-three pounds! Blessed be God! The people gave most readily, many wishing they had more to give; for which we afterwards prayed and gave thanks.

OXFORD.

Wednesday, January 7. Slept about three hours, rose at five, set out at ten, and reached Oxford by five in the evening. As I entered the city, I called to mind the mercies I had received since I left it. They are more than I am able to express. Oh, that my heart may be melted down by a sense of them, Amen, Lord Jesus. Spent the remainder of the evening very agreeably with several christian friends. May God sanctify our meeting!

Friday, January 12. Breakfasted with sixteen or seventeen christian brethren; expounded and read prayers at the castle to many devout souls. Afterwards I waited on the bishop of Gloucester, who received me very kindly. Waited on the master of Pembroke, afterwards on the archdeacon. Went to public worship at Pembroke. Supped, prayed, and sung psalms with a room full of brethren at Mr F.'s; then adjourned to Corpus Christi college, where God assisted me to talk clearly of the new birth, and justification by faith alone, with one that opposed it. Lord, open thou our eyes, that we may prove what is that acceptable

and perfect will of God! Received the holy sacrament at St Mary's, expounded with great power at Mr F.'s, went with the other candidates for holy orders to subscribe to the articles, and secretly prayed that we all might have our names written in the book of life. Drank tea with a well-disposed gentleman commoner, and had close conversation with many others at Corpus Christi college. I enjoyed great tranquillity of soul, and had much reason to bless God for sending me to the university. Oh! that I may be prepared for receiving the Holy Ghost to-morrow by the imposition of hands. Amen, Lord Jesus, Amen.

Sunday, January 14. This, blessed be God, has been a day of fat things. Rose in the morning, and prayed and sung psalms lustily, and with a good courage; and afterwards was ordained priest at Christ's church. Before, I was a little dissipated, but at imposition of hands, my mind was in an humble frame, and I received grace in the holy sacrament. That I might begin to make proof of my ministry, I preached, and administered the sacrament at the castle; and preached in the afternoon at St Alban's to a crowded congregation. The church was surrounded with gownsmen of all degrees, who, contrary to their custom, stood attentive at the windows during my sermon. God enabled ine to preach with the demonstration of the spirit, and with power, and quite took away my hoarseness, so that I could lift up my voice like a trumpet. sermon, I joined in giving thanks to our good God for all the mercies he had conferred upon me; then I read prayers at Carfax, expounded to a large and devout company, both of men and women, at a private house, and spent the remainder of the evening with thirteen more, where God gave me great cheerfulness of spirit. LONDON.

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Monday, January 15. Took a most affectionate leave of my dear Oxon brethren, set out at seven, reached London by five, spent the evening in answering some letters, especially one from Howel Harris, an mstrument, under God, of doing much good in Wales.

-Read a pamphlet written against me by a clergyman, I bless God, without any emotion; prayed most heartily for the author; opened the corruptions of my heart to my brethren in bands, and felt great peace consequent thereupon.

Tuesday, January 16. After much opposition, read prayers, and preached to a thronged and affected audience at St Helen's. After this I expounded twice to two companies, and prayed by name for the author of the pamphlet; left my auditors in tears, and went home full of love, and joy, and peace which passeth all understanding. Oh, that he felt what I do! Happy, unspeakably happy, would he then be!

Wednesday, January 17. Dined with and convinced several that were prejudiced against extempore prayer. -Waited on the trustees, and was most kindly received. Afterwards much assisted in expounding twice at Mr C.'s. The more I am opposed, the more God enlightens my understanding. So it was formerly, so it is now. Spent the remainder of the evening at Fetter-lane society; and God enabled me to tell of some experiences, which I hope comforted their hearts.

Thursday, January 18. Perceived myself much disordered, so that I was obliged to lie down to sleep. But afterwards God greatly enlarged my heart, and enabled me to expound to two societies. I made a collection for two poor housekeepers.-I find action is the best way to take all oppression off the spirits. God will meet and bless us when doing his work.

Friday, January 19. Did some necessary business for Georgia, and spent the afternoon in visiting some dissenting brethren, who are christians indeed. But, as such, I acknowledge all who love our Lord Jesus in sincerity and truth.

Saturday, January 20. Preached three times this week, and expounded to about sixteen thronged companies, wherein God gave me great power and success. -Had many contributions sent me in for the orphanhouse.

Sunday, January 21. Went this morning and re

ceived the sacrament at the hands of the minister who wrote against me. Blessed be God I do not feel the least resentment against, but a love for him. For I believe he has a zeal for God, though, in my opinion, not according to knowledge. Oh, that I could do him any good!

Preached twice with great power and clearness in my voice to two thronged congregations, especially in the afternoon, when I believe near a thousand people were in the church-yard, and hundreds more returned home that could not come in. Thus God magnifies his power, most when most opposed.

Expounded twice afterwards, where the people pressed most vehemently to hear the word. God enabled me to speak with the demonstration of the Spirit, and with power, and the remainder of the evening, filled me with a humble sense of his infinite mercies. I think I am never more humble than when exalted. By the grace of God I am what I am. Oh, that I could be thankful!

Monday, January 22. Spent all the day in necessary business for my poor flock, and in going about doing good. In the evening I expounded to three several societies, one of which was the most polite I ever yet saw; but God enabled me to speak upon the doctrine of the new birth; and however some might mock, yet others, I believe, were affected, especially three Quakers, who afterwards came and paid me a visit, and glorified God on my behalf. Oh how thankful, how humble ought I to be!—God fills me with love, peace, and joy in the Holy Ghost. Such is his free grace in Christ Jesus!

Tuesday, January 23. Staid at home to-day as usual, to receive people, and still had the comfort of hearing many coming to me, who have been awakened to a sense of the new birth. What reason have I to bless God for sending me to England! How does he daily set his seal to my ministry! Praise him all the host of his, let every thing that hath breath praise the Lord.

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