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and in which I might chance to distinguish ' myself. What I have done here, though it has * required ten times the exertion, will never be - heard of. At the same time I cannot com• plain. My disappointment is announced • in such flattering terms,-my merit, confi. dence in me, &c. &c. ;—though it is hard • that a man's merit should be the cause of • his punishment. The truth is, that Sir Ralph has not officers enough. He is going upon this expedition with few who can do his business. It is a pity he is so old himself, for he is a spunky fellow.

'I wish sincerely that Lord Malmesbury 'may succeed and make peace. I am quite * tired of being kept in St. Lucia. I now see 'no chance of being removed from it.

• I am glad I refused the government of · Grenada, which undoubtedly had been pro‘mised to Sir Ralph for me.

'I expect to find myself, at the end of the war, with the

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of Lieutenant-Colonel. I . have lived upon it these six years, and can • continue to do so the rest of my life, as

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* long as I have the satisfaction to reflect that • I have done nothing to disgrace myself, or those with whom I am connected.

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Adieu, my dear Father,
• Your affectionate Son,

John Moore.'

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• St. Lucia, 16th May, 1797. • My dear Father,—So many packets have • been taken of late, that for this considerable ' time past I have neither heard from you, 'nor have I had any opportunity of writing

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• I think I mentioned to you that I had had a visit from Sir Ralph the end of March, • the object of which was to excuse himself ' for not taking me, agreeably to former pro* mises, upon the expedition. I have, how

ever, now no reason to regret that I was not • of it, as the place was found too strong for · his small force; and, after landing at Porto Rico, and remaining on shore about a fortnight, Sir Ralph was obliged to re-embark · his troops and give up the attempt. He * returned to Martinico about ten days ago.

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It was impossible to enjoy better health " than I did from the time the fever left ' me last October or November, till lately. * About a month ago I was again seized with

fever ; at the same time an abscess formed • itself in the bottom of my right hip. The • inflammation was great, and the pain ex• cruciating. It swelled to considerable size,

and, when opened, a very great collection of * matter was discharged. I was confined to 'my bed upwards of three weeks. The fever • in the mean time left me, and I was able to * throw in bark. The surgeon was afraid that · the great cavity, occasioned by the matter

collected, would have been troublesome to • heal—it has, however, gone on vastly

( well.

· I have been out of bed about a week. I was excessively reduced, and of course am • still weak. I, however, gain strength daily. * A change of air was strongly recommended ; ' and, in Sir Ralph's absence, General Hunter • sent an officer to relieve me, and advised me ' to go to Martinique.

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• I, however, refused to avail myself of this . permission. Sir Ralph had intrusted the • island to me, and I was determined that ' nothing but absolute necessity should force ‘me to quit it in his absence.

• My knowledge of the country and of the * people, and long habit, enabled me to direct • the common business of the island, with the • assistance of the officers of my family, even ' from my bed; and in case of any attempt • from the enemy without, though the active

part must have fallen to the officers sent to ' relieve me, yet my advice might be of use. ' At all events, I should have the satisfaction to think I had done all I could.

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“Nil conscire sibi, nullâ pallescere culpa." " I felt that if I went away, and any mis. fortune happened in Sir Ralph's absence, I should never forgive myself.

• It was, however, my wish to quit St. Lucia ' the moment Sir Ralph returned. All this 'I expressed in a letter I wrote to General • Hunter, which was shown to Sir Ralph upon • his arrival.

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• He has not, however, sent me leave to depart; but, in a very kind letter, has begged, as I seemed to be recovering, that I • would remain for some time longer, as he

was much at a loss for an officer to intrust • with the command of the island.

• This there is no refusing ; but I am de• termined, if possible, not to remain during • the hurricane months. On the contrary, my ' wish is to return to Europe.

· The gentleman who has attended me • advises this strongly. He says my natural 'good constitution has enabled me to resist • the repeated attacks I have had ; that now

; • I shall be more liable to relapses, at the

same time that I shall be less able to stand (them.

· I am convinced myself that by remaining · * here I shall only destroy my constitution, * without being able to do much service. I • shall therefore, as the campaign is now over, push Sir Ralph to allow me to go home this summer. If anything active is to be carried on next year, I can return.

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