If music can thus move. But what is he,
I know but this," said Maddalo: "he came To Venice a dejected man, and fame Said he was wealthy, or he had been so.
Some thought the loss of fortune wrought him woe, But he was ever talking in such sort
As you do, but more sadly he seem'd hurt, Even as a man with his peculiar wrong, To hear but of the oppression of the strong, Or those absurd deceits (I think with you In some respects, you know) which carry thro' The excellent impostors of this earth
When they outface detection. He had worth, Poor fellow! but a humourist in his way."- "Alas, what drove him mad!"
"I cannot say: A lady came with him from France, and when She left him and returned, he wander'd then About yon lonely isles of desert sand, Till he grew wild. He had no cash nor land Remaining the police had brought him here- Some fancy took him, and he would not beal Removal, so I fitted up for him
Those rooms beside the sea, to please his whim; And sent him busts, and books, and urns for flowers, Which had adorned his life in happier hours,
And instruments of music. You may guess
A stranger could do little more or less
For one so gentle and unfortunate
And those are his sweet strains which charm the weight From madmen's chains, and make this hell appear
A heaven of sacred silence, hushed to hear."
"Nay, this was kind of you,-he had no claim, As the world says."
"None but the very same
Which I on all mankind, were I, as he, Fall'n to such deep reverse. His melody
Is interrupted now: we hear the din Of madmen, shriek on shriek, again begin: Let us now visit him: after this strain, He ever communes with himself again, And sees and hears not any."
Having said These words, we called the keeper, and he jed To an apartment opening on the sea-
There the poor wretch was sitting mournfully Near a piano, his pale fingers twined
One with the other; and the ooze and wind Rushed thro' an open casement, and did sway His hair, and started it with the brackish spray: His head was leaning on a music-book,
And he was muttering; and his lean limbs shook; His lips were pressed against a folded leaf, In hue too beautiful for health, and grief Smiled in their motions as they lay apart, As one who wrought from his own fervid heart The eloquence of passion: soon he raised
His sad meek face, and eyes lustrous and glazed, And 'spoke,-sometimes as one who wrote and thought His words might move some heart that heeded not, If sent to distant lands;-and then as one Reproaching deeds never to be undone,
With wondering self-compassion; then his speech Was lost in grief, and then his words came each Unmodulated and expressionless,-
But that from one jarred accent yon might guess It was despair made them so uniform :
And all the while the loud and gusty storm Hissed thro' the window, and we stood behind, Stealing his accents from the envious wind, Unseen. I yet remember what he said Distinctly, such impression his words made.
"Month after month," he cried, "to bear this load, And, as a jade urged by the whip and goad, To drag iife on-which like a heavy chain Lengthens behind with many a link of pain, And not to speak my grief-O, not to dare
To give a human voice to my despair;
But live, and move, and, wretched thing. smile on, As if I never went aside to groan,
And wear this mask of falsehood even to those Who are most dear-not for my own repose- Alas! no scorn, nor pain, nor hate, could be So heavy as that falsehood is to me-
But that I cannot bear more altered faces
Than needs must be, more changed and cold embraces, More misery, disappointment, and mistrust,
To own me for their father. Would the dust
Were covered in upon my body now!
That the life ceased to toil within my brow!
And then these thoughts would at the last be fled: Let us not fear such pain can vex the dead.
"What Power delights to torture us? I know That to myself I do not wholly owe What now I suffer, though in part I may. Alas! none strewed fresh flowers upon the way Where, wandering heedlessly, I met pale Pain, My shadow, which will leave me not again. If I have erred, there was no joy in error, But pain, and insult, and unrest, and terror; I have not, as some do, bought penitence With pleasure, and a dark yet sweet offence; For then if love, and tenderness, and truth, Had overlived Hope's momentary youth,
My creed should have redeemed me from repenting: But loathed scorn and outrage unrelenting
Met love excited by far other seeming
Until the end was gained :-as one from dreaming Of sweetest peace, I woke, and found my state Such as it is.-
"O thou, my spirit's mate! Who, for thou art compassionate and wise, Wouldst pity me from thy most gentle eyes If this sad writing thou shouldst ever see, My secret groans must be unheard by thee, Thou wouldst weep tears, bitter as blood, to know Thy lost friend's incommunicable woe.
Ye few by whom my nature has been weighed In friendship, let me not that name degrade, By placing on your hearts the secret load Which crushes mine to dust. There is one road To peace, and that is truth, which follow ye! Love sometimes leads astray to misery.
Yet think not, tho' subdued (and I may well Say that I am subdued)-that the full hell Within me would infect the untainted breast Of sacred nature with its own unrest; As some perverted beings think to find In scorn or hate a medicine for the mind
Which scorn or hate hath wounded-0, how vain The dagger heals not, but may rend again. Believe that I am ever still the same In creed as in resolve; and what may tame My heart, must leave the understanding free Or all would sink under this agony - Nor dream that I will join the vulgar eye, Or with my silence sanction tyranny, Or seek a moment's shelter from my pain In any madness which the world calls gain; Ambition, or revenge, or thoughts as stern As those which make me what I am, orturn To avarice or misanthrophy or lust. Heap on me soon, O grave, thy welcome dust! 'Till then the dungeon may demand its prey; And Poverty and Shame may meet and say, Halting beside me, in the public way,- "That love-devoted youth is ours: let's sit Beside him: he may live some six months yet.'- Or the red scaffold, as our country bends, May ask some willing victim; or ye, friends, May fall under some sorrow, which this heart Or hand may share, or vanquish, or avert : I am prepared, in truth, with no proud joy, To do or suffer aught, as when a boy
I did devote to justice, and to love,
My nature, worthless now.
A veil from my pent mind. 'Tis torn aside!
O! pallid as Death's dedicated bride, Thou mockery which art sitting by my side. Am I not wan like thee? At the grave's call I haste, invited to thy wedding-ball, To meet the ghastly paramour, for whom Thou hast deserted me,-and made the tomb Thy bridal bed. But I beside thy feet Will lie, and watch ye from my winding-sheet. Thus-wide awake tho' dead-Yet stay, O, stay! Go not so soon-I know not what I say- Hear but my reasons-I am mad, I fear, My fancy is o'erwrought- thou art not here. Pale art thou, 'tis most true-but thou art gone- Thy work is finished; I am left alone.
"Nay, was it I who wooed thee to this breast, Which like a serpent thou envenomest As in repayment of the warmth it lent?
Didst thou not seek me for thine own content? Did not thy love awaken mine? I thought That thou wert she who said You kiss me not Ever; I fear you do not love me now.'
In truth I loved even to my overthrow Her, who would fain forget these words, but they Cling to her mind, and cannot pass away.
"You say that I am proud; that when I speak, My lip is tortured with the wrongs, which break The spirit it expresses.-Never one
Humbled himself before, as I have done!
Even the instinctive worm on which we tread Turns, tho' it wound not-then, with prostrate heal Sinks in the dust, and writhes like me-and dies: No:-wears a living death of agonies!
As the slow shadows of the pointed grass Mark the eternal periods, its pangs pass, Slow, ever-moving, making moments be As mine seem,-each an immortality!
"That you had never seen me! never heard My voice! and, more than all, had ne'er endured
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