Charged with light memories of remembered hours, None slow enough for sadness: till we came Homeward, which always makes the spirit tame. This day had been cheerful but cold, and now The sun was sinking, and the wind also. Our talk grew somewhat serious, as may be Talk interrupted with such raillery
As mocks itself, because it cannot scorn
The thoughts it would extinguish :-'twas ferlorn, Yet pleasing; such as once, so poets tell, The devils held within the dales of hell, Concerning God, freewill, and destiny. Of all that Earth has been, or yet may be ; All that vain men imagine or believe, Or hope can paint, or suffering can achieve, We descanted; and I (for ever still Is it not wise to make the best of ill?) Argued against despondency; but pride Made my companion take the darker side. The sense that he was greater than his kind Had struck, methinks, his eagle spirit blind By gazing on its own exceeding light. Meanwhile the sun paused ere it should alight Over the horizon of the mountains-Oh! How beautiful is sunset, when the glow Of heaven descends upon a land like thee, Thou paradise of exiles, Italy!
Thy mountains, seas, and vineyards, and the towers Of cities they encircle !-It was ours
To stand on thee, beholding it: and then,
Just where we had dismounted, the Count's men
Were waiting for us with the gondola.
As those who pause on some delightful way, Tho' bent on pleasant pilgrimage, we stood, Looking upon the evening and the flood, Which lay between the city and the shore, Paved with the image of the sky: the hoar And aery Alps, toward the north, appeared, Thro' mist, a heaven-sustaining bulwark, reared Between the east and west; and half the sky Was roofed with clouds of rich emblazonry,
Dark purple at the zenith, which still grew Down the steep west into a wondrous hue Brighter than burning gold, even to the rent Where the swift sun yet paused in his descent Among the many-folded hills-they were Those famous Euganean hills, which bear, As seen from Lido thro' the harbour piles, The likeness of a clump of peaked isles- And then, as if the earth and sea had been Dissolved in to one lake of fire, were seen
Those mountains towering, as from waves of flame, Around the vaporous sun, from which there came The inmost purple spirit of light, and made Their very peaks transparent. "Ere it fade," Said my companion, I will show you soon A better station." So, o'er the lagune We glided; and from that funereal bark I leaned, and saw the city, and could mark How from their many isles in evening's gleam. Its temples and its palaces did seem Like fabrics of enchantment piled to heav'n. I was about to speak, when-"We are even Now at the point I meant," said Maddalo, And bade the gondolieri cease to row. "Look, Julian, on the west, and listen well If you hear not a deep and heavy bell." I looked, and saw between us and the sun A building on an island, such a one As age to age might add, for uses vile,- A windowless, deformed, and dreary pile; And on the top an open tower, where hung A bell, which in the radiance swayed and swung, We could just hear its coarse and iron tongue : The broad sun sank behind it, and it tolled In strong and black relief." What we behold Shall be the madhouse and its belfry tower,"- Said Maddalo; "and even at this hour,
Those who may cross the water hear that bell Which calls the maniacs, each one from his cell, To vespers."-" As much skill as need to pray, In thanks or hope for their dark lot have they,
To their stern maker," I replied.-" O, ho! You talk as in years past," said Maddalo. "Tis strange men change not. You were ever still Among Christ's flock a perilous infidel,
A wolf for the meek .ambs: if you can't swim, Beware of providence." I looked on him, But the gay smile had faded from his eye. "As such," he cried, "is our mortality; And this must be the emblem and the sign Of what should be eternal and divine;
And like that black and dreary bell, the soul, Hung in a heav'n-illumined tower must toll Our thoughts and our desires to meet below Round the rent heart, and pray-as madmen do. For what? they know not, till the night of death, As sunset that strange vision, severeth Our memory from itself, and us from all We sought, and yet were baffled." I recall The sense of what he said, although I mar The force of his expressions. The broad stai Of day meanwhile had sunk behind the hill; And the black bell became invisible;
And the red tower looked grey; and all between, The churches, ships, and palaces, were seen Huddled in gloom; into the purple sea The orange hues of heaven sunk silently. We hardly spoke, and soon the gondola Conveyed me to my lodging by the way.
The following morn was rainy, cold, and dim: Ere Maddalo arose I called on him,
And whilst I waited with his child I played; A lovelier toy sweet Nature never made;
A serious, subtle, wild, yet gentle being; Graceful without design, and unforeseeing;
With eyes-Oh! speak not of her eyes! which seem Twin Mirrors of Italian Heaven, yet gleam With such deep meaning as we never see But in the human countenance. With me She was a special favourite: I had nursed Her fine and feeble limbs, when she came first
To this bleak world; and yet she seemed to know On second sight her ancient playfellow,
Less changed than she was by six months or so, For, after her first shyness was worn out, We sate there, rolling billiard balls about, When the Count entered. Salutations pass'd: "The words you spoke last night might well have cast A darkness on my spirit:-if man be
The passive thing you say, I should not see Much harm in the religions and old saws, (Tho' I may never own such leaden laws) Which break a teachless nature to the yoke: Mine is another faith."-Thus much I spoke, And, noting he replied not, added-" See This lovely child; blithe, innocent, and free; She spends a happy time, with little care; While we to such sick thoughts subjected are, As came on you last night. It is our will Which thus enchains us to permitted ill. We might be otherwise; we might be all We dream of, happy, high, majestical. Where is the beauty, love, and truth, we seek, But in our minds? And, if we were not weak, Should we be less in deed than in desire?"- -"Aye, if we were not weak,-and we aspire, How vainly to be strong," said Maddalo: "You talk Utopian"-
"It remains to know," I then rejoined, "and those who try, may find How strong the chains are which our spirit bind : Brittle perchance as straw We are assured Much may be conquered, much may be endured, Of what degrades and crushes' us. We know That we have power over ourselves to do And suffer-what, we know not till we try; But something nobler than to live and die: So taught the kings of old philosophy, Who reigned before religion made men blind; And those who suffer with their suffering kind, Yet feel this faith, religion
"My dear friend," Said Maddalo, "my judgment will not bend To your opinion, though I think you might Make such a system refutation-tight,
As far as words go. I knew one like you, Who to this city came some months ago. With whom I argued in this sort, and he Is now gone mad-and so he answered me, Poor fellow!-But if you would like to go, We'll visit him, and his wild talk will shew How vain are such aspiring theories."—
"I hope to prove the induction otherwise, And that a want of that true theory still, Which seeks a soul of goodness in things ill, Or in himself or others, has thus bow'd His being there are some by nature proud, Who, patient in all else, demand but this- To love and be beloved with gentleness:- And being scorned, what wonder if they die Some living death? This is not destiny, But man's own wilful ill."
As thus I spoke, Servants announced the gondola, and we Through the fast-falling rain and high-wrought sea Sailed to the island where the madhouse stands. We disembarked. The clap of tortured hands, Fierce yells and howlings, and lamentings keen, And laughter where complaint had merrier been, Accosted us. We climbed the oozy stairs into an old court-yard. I heard on high, T'hen, fragments of most touching melody, But looking up saw not the singer there. Thro' the black bars in the tempestuous air I saw, like weeds on a wreck'd palace growing, Long tangled locks flung wildly forth and flowing, Of those on a sudden who were beguiled
Into strange silence, and looked forth and smiled, Hearing sweet sounds. Then I :-
"Methinks there were
A cure of these with patience and kind care,
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