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Praises be always in my Mouth. And when
God gives a Child that can begin to talk, . let it be both my Wifes concern and mine,
with equal zeal, and equal naturalness, to (make the works of God the constant matter
of our Discourse, and Instruction to our 'Child. As others talk to their Child of a • Grand Mother, an Aunt, or the Vanities of " the World, let us talk to ours of its Maker ' and our Father, God; and of the Place • whither we hope to go, Heaven ; and of the Company we shall have there, the Blesled Angels. Let me therefore have a Wife of a
natural, free, ingenuous and noble Piety, ? which shall not consist in Phrases, and Tone,
and Melancholy, and Censure, but in vigorous Zeal, Uprightness, and Integrity and
faithfulness of Heart to God: A clear + chearful unaffected Disposition, with a most Sardent and bold Love to God. So that we
may not converse of God because it is our Duty, but because our Hearts are full of
him, and we are us’d to it, so that we shall I do it before we are aware.
Then shall we sleep and awake with him, walk and fit in his Presence, and live the Life of Angels upon Earth. Nor shall it be in the Power of the Wicked one to inject Peevishness or Quarrels, or Displeasures, as being out of · Humour, the Effects of Folly and Impiety,
but we thall ever be one in the Lord. The Lord, if any, Grant me such a Compa
He continu'd in a Marri'd state Five Yea.is, and Five Months ; but the latter part of that time, it pleas d God to allow him but little
Health; the last Year especially, when his * Disorders return’d more frequently, and with
greater violence than before. Those Bodily Distempers shock'd his Resolutions of entring into Holy Orders, at least thus far, that if he shou'd take that sacred Character upon him, he would apply himself to the Duties of it so far as he was able, but without undertaking a Parochial Cure: For thus I find him exprefsing himself, fome Years before his Death. If my want of Health Should hinder me from taking a Cure which I very much apprehend, I cou'd contentedly spend my time in the most profltable manner I was capable of, for the good of the Church, particularly in devotional things which seem to be my Talent, and in which without much more Study I might hope to succeed. And such high Thoughts had he, of the extent and difficulty of the Pastoral Duty, that he esteem'd his frequent returns of Sickness, equivalent to a declaration of Providence, that he was not desigo'd for the more laborious performances of it, tho’the Bent of his desires was continually that way.
But even these Desires were at last inter- His Sicknejo rupted, by that Fatal Sickness which
brought and Death him to his End. For in April 1699 he was seized with a Malignant Fever, which about that time reigned very much in Dublin; by it, his Head was so much affected, that he had Rot a constant command of his Thoughts,
nor that unisturbed Exercise of his Faculties which all Men defire in those Extremities. For some Days of his Sickness, his Reason was clear, and to the last, he had frequent Intervals of perfect Understanding. And then 'tis impossible to conceive One in the greatest Pain and Anguilh, more Submissive, more Patient, more Resign'd to the Will of God: Then Prayers and Praises were his only Language, or calling upon others to Pray for him. But no Murmur, no Complaint, came out of his Mouth. And tho' no doubt he had all the Comforts of a good Conscience, and powerful Supports from God, in that great conflict of Nature, yet he express'd himself with all that Humility and awful Concern which becomes a Sinner, when he Reflected upon that Pure and Holy God, at whose Bar he was soon to be Try'd. Now (says he) must I stand or fall before my great Judge. And when it was answer'd that no doubt he wou'd stand firm before him, through the Merits of our Crucified Saviour: His Reply shews, upon what a firm Foundation, he built his Dependance and Hopes : It's in that (says he) I trust ; he knows it's in that I trust. And his last Moments of Reason, were spent in those Heavenly Exercises, wherein every good Man wou'd desire to breath out his Soul, and which" to him, no doubt, were the happy beginnings of endless Praises above. He Dy'd the Twenty Eighth Day of April 1699, in the Forty Sixth Year of his Age; and his Body Iyes Interr'd in St. John's Church in Dublin, Of
Three Children (Two Sons and a Daughter) wherewith God had Blesed him, the Daughter only Surviv'd him. And he left behind him a truly afflicted Widow, who, I am perswaded, will persevere to shew the World, How justly the priz'd his excellent Qualities and tender Love; and who has spar'd no Pains to get his Life and Character publishid, that so some Justice may be done to his Memory, and the World benefited by his Example. And even that Child which did surI vive him, has since followed her Father, after having liv'd so long as to thew that she Inherited his Virtues, the sweetness of his Temper, his Devoutness and Patience, so that had it pleas'd God to have continued her in the World, she promis’d to have been a very shining Example of Piety and Goodness. And indeed both from what I saw in her my felf, and from the Informations of others upon which I entirely depend, I have been strongly Inclined to mention some of her particular Sayings and Actions, and to have given Instances of her Piety and Patience at Four, Five, and Six Years Old. But they are so extraordinary, that I choose to suppress them, because they would hardly obtain belief. I shall only observe from what I knew of that Child, that Parents don't begin time enough to form their Childrens Minds to Religion. Sin gets the first Possession of their Hearts,and they are taught Lying and Vanity much sooner, than to Love God or pray to him.
Whereas if the same early Care was us'd with the generality of Children, as was taken with her, to give them such Apprehensions of God, of Sin, of Truth, of Heaven and Hell as they are capable of, tho' the Success would not in many be equal to what it was in her, few having such natural Dispositions to Goodness as appeared in her, yet wou'd it be such, as wou'd go a great way in Reforming the world, and making the next Generation Good and Virtuous.