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ness and Worldliness crept into the Church, and has been ever since striking its Roots deep into it to this very day; the whole Christian Church having never since suffered

any general Persecution. It has picas d God ' fometimes to Affiet particular Churches, and

rouze them up; but this has been so little general, that we may well fear that the Spi'rit of Religion is almost decay'd in the World: And as nothing but a great Persecution in Humane appearance can awaken it, so in the mean time we know not where

to look for it; but have reason to fear, that ' if we think it enough for us to be as good as

our Neighbours , we shall come short at last ' of the Kingdom of Heaven. Alas! it is the

easiest thing that can be, to go to Heaven 'according to the Notion of the Men of the ( World now.

At their rate, Who will be (damn'd? But surely there muit be Two

Heavens. at great distance the one from the other : One for the Superficial Christians of this Age, and Another for the Pious and Painful, the mortified and religiously strict Christians of Old; or else these Superficial Christians can go to no Heaven at all.

To both these I shall add a Prayer of his upon his Birth-day, November 14 1690, and tho' only part of it falls in with what went before, yet no doubt the Pious Reader will be sufficiently pleas'd with the whole.

Omost High and Glorious Lord God! Who haft made me and given me such great Capacities, even to be able to love Thee: I

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was nothing when Thou wert pleas'd to give me a Being,and am nothing yet, but what Thou shalt be pleas'd to make me. Thou

orderest and disposest of me with the ten' derness of a Father, and with infinite Wifc dom: Sometimes Thou hast vouchrated me leisure, and the quiet enjoyment of thy felf: At other times Thou hast fill'd me with Hurry and Business; and with Cares, if not so much Hurrying, yet more Distracting than either. Sometimes Thou hast granted me Health, a chearful Temper, and the sense of Thy Love: At other times

Thou hast left me no more than the bare { remembrance of these Enjoyments, to car‘ry on my Soul in the unrelishing discharge (of my Duties. But as Thy Wisdom pro

duces strong Trees from tender Plants, by <

bringing them through the vicisitudes of Day and Night, of Summer and Winter, and leaving them sometimes stript of all their Leaves, in the very shadow of their Death,

making these changes the necessary means of ' their Growth and Solidness; fo Thou hast ? instructed me hereby, not to wonder at

Thy appointing such changes to my Soul ; ' but in them all to bless and adore Thee,and

to make it my business, in whatever state I am, to endeavour to go on to serve Thee. When last I began my yearly Collections of this fort, Thou hadít fhut me up, and Thy Servants, in this place, in distress and ter

We are now by thy Mercy free'd from Dangers, yet involv'd' in new Trou

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b'es: Deliver'd from Judgments, yet oppress'd with old Sins. Good God! What will become of us? Why thou'd we be stricken any more; we will revolt more and more. Surely thy extirminating Sentence will next go out against us, and make

us cease to be a People, since we will not <cease to be a wicked one.

But, O moft gracious Governour and ' Guide of my whole Life, shut not up my

Soul with those who will not be Reform'd: ' Enable me to reform my felf, and then vouchsafe to make use of me for Thy Glory, in the way Thy Wisdom has ordaind

for me: ( thou who hast known me be'fore I was, and made me what I am. <

Amen.

These Apprehensions of the decay of Piety, Resolves astirr'd up a new in Mr. Bonnell's Mind, his gain to quit former desires of betaking himself entirely to his Employthe service of God, and quitting all Secular mene. Business. In order to this, he entred into a firm resolution of parting with his Employment, so soon as he cou'd find one,upon whom with an easië Mind he might devolve so great a Trust ; and in a little time he actually agreed with a Gentleman of sufficient Abilities for it. But that Gentleman's Delays first, and afterwards his Resolutions of living constantly in England, kept Mr. Bonnell much longer engag’d in his Employment, than he cou'd posfibly have expected. But at last he was free'd from it, by a new Agreement which he made

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with the Gentleman who now enjoys it; but even so, much time was spent before He

*cou'd be settled in it. His Marria

While this tedious Affair was transacting, age.

Mr. Bonnell chang’d his condition of Life, and entred into a Marri’d State, which he did in the latter end of the Year 1693. The Perfon he made choice of, was Fane Conyngham, Daughter to Sir Albert Conyngham ; a Gentleman, very well known in this Kingdom, for his firm adherence to the Royal Family, during the Civil Wars; in whose Cause, he often expos’d his Life to the greatest Dangers; and for his Bravery and Conduct in the late War, commanding a Regiment of Dragoons, and at last Dying in the Service. Mr. Bonnell had some Years before, entred into a strict Friendship with this Gentlewoman. He believed her Temper and manner of Life ve. ry well suited to his own, and that she had those Qualities which he chiefly desir'd in a Wife. And as this was an Affair of the greatest Moment to him, of any in this World ; so I have those Materials in my hands which shew, that with all imaginable Constancy and Ardor, he beg'd God's direction in his Resolution and Choice, that every thought of his Mind, and every step he shou'd make, might be overrul'd by his Providence: That Providence to whose conduct and disposal he had long before, resign'd up himself and all his concerns; and whose motions he was fully determin'd, without the least Reluctancy, to follow.

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He had at all times different thoughts of the Happiness of a Marrid State from the generality of Men, who are govern’d more by violent and disorderly Passions, than by Reason and Religion. The following Meditation is a sufficient Proof of this, written by him in the 26th Year of his Age, and which hé Intitles The Wish, or an Idea of Marriage.

Marriage is the Representative of the most sacred Union between Christ and his Church, Christ, who left his Blessed Father to become Marri'd to Mankind, and espouse a whole Church for a Wife. Till this was In'stituted Man was but half made and Im. perfect ; For this shall a Man leave his Father and Mother faid God himself. · For this,First let me ferve a sufficient time of Courtship, but let it be sweetned with the Conversation of the Person I love, and if there be opposition of others to struggle with, it will but render the conversation

the more favoury, and afford matter for ' Entertainment and Discourse, and likewise 'many times for Divertisement; at least it

will the more endear under a cominon Suf'fering. Next upon Marriage, let us imme

diately remove from the mixt Company in (which hitherto we have liv'd, to enjoy each

other in a more solitary Retirement, where call things about us are our own, and to be our own Care: And here, let us be sufficient

Company to each other as Adam was to Eve ' in Paradice. Here let me in my Family be the Priest of the most High God, and let his

Praises

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