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November If it shou'd please God to let this Storm 1687, ' blow over us which now hangs so black, and
turn his Judgments into a Blesling; I fou'd not be capable of any Comfort from such a happy Day, if I Anu'd reflect that I had not perform’d my part in praying earnestly to God for such a Blessing. They only that Sow in Tears, shall Reap in Joy: If I ' have no part in that holy Sowing, I fall
look upon my self to have no share in that
happy Harvet. I shall be like the Sullen Sa. ' maritan Lord, who wou'd not believe the
Prophets Word. I shall see the Plenty with my Eye, but not be suffered to taste of it. If Perfons join together for an Adventure,
and put in their Stocks; surely the Gain, ( when it returns, shall be divided between ' them, and a Stranger shall not intermedle (with their Profit. Good People are now
stirring up themselves to join earnestly together in Prayer, for a removal of the Judg ments that threaten us; and surely if I join not with them with my humble Prayers, I shall see a Blessing falling into their Bosoms; I Mall see it, and look sad, and go away empty
And as Mr. Bonnell saw danger coming on, His Behavia our upon the with a very compos'd Mind, so his Apprehenbreaking out fions did not grow greater at the near approach of the late of it. For I find in his Private Papers, an acTroubles.
count of his Behaviour, when this Kingdom was universally Alarm’d at the report of a Massacre, defign'd to have been Atted upon the Ninth of December 1688. This News
- astonish'd the Protestants every where, partiid cularly in Dublin, and great Multitudes fled in
confusion to the Sea fide to escape, as they best cou'd, for England. What share Mr. Bonnell
had in these Fears, and how quickly he got f the better of them; what now follows will best shew, writ that very Day of Terror and Disorder, when the Impressions, which a common danger might raise in the best resolved Mind, wou'd probably be strongest.
" How inconstant are humane things ! Bles- December 9
England and multitudes flock'd away. I went • my self to Rings-end, thinking if there were
any Alarm, I was nearer to take Shipping.
no leave to go: Therefore I wou'd not go, (unless in case of Extremity, when no Duty
cou'd be attended on. If I desired to fol. low the direction of God, and to watch
and observe the guiding of his Providence 'in every lesser Affair of my Life, surely I ! shou'd do it in the most important one, my · Life it self; for if I may presume anything
relating to me to be his care, this no doubt
is. Now the Index of his Will, is bis Pro6 vidence; and of his Providence, is my Duty: ! This is the Star that points out to Me the « course I am to take. If I am discharg'd
from my Duty, I may expect Gods Protectie on in going from hence; if not, in staying
here. While I waited at Rings end, uncer"tain in my resolutions, I remember'd a Verse of the First Lesion at last Nights Prayers, which then I took notice of, but forgot it in the hurry of going away. Ifa. 30. 15. In
returning and reft Mall ye be saved, in quietness ' and confidence shall be your strength. God re
quires of us a confident reliance on him, in the Station wherein he sets us; a quiet doing of our Duty, and he Promises his fafe-guard ( to such. I thought therefore I wou'd return,
and put my self into his Hands, and Endeavour quietly to compose my self to await his pleasure. Instead of hurrying about to enquire of News, I wou'd retire my self to my God, and settle matters between him and my « Soul. Behold I am come, O my God, hide
not thy self from thy Servant in the Day of Danger. Olut not out thy self from me this day, when the matter in debate is my appearing before thee for ever. I have de
serv'd, I must humbly acknowledge, that thou 'Thou’dít withdraw thy Grace and Favour from
my Soul. But cast not away, O Lord, all thy past Favours, and let them not be lost upon me.
Pardon for thy tender Mercies, my unworthiness of them, and awaken my "Soul to behold thee, that thy presence may purifie it from all the Dross it has contracted by conversing in the World, and fit it for
thy self. Lord, Thou lovest to Succour in * Distress; nothing is so pleasing to generous
Lovë, as to rescue from
Danger,those whom • it is pleas'd to favour. For what sentiments ' does this awaken in an Ingenuous Heart ! Who can but adore that watchful love which seasonably comes into its preservation! This then, O Lord, is my humble confidence in 'Thee; for I not only liope for deliverance ' from Thee, but that thou wilt make this
Deliverance, a means to my Soul of returning to Thee love and praises for ever. But
O my God, instruct my Soul to remove all ' difficulties that lye in the way of Thy Mer
that every corrupt Affe&tion may be • done away, which hinders my approach to 'Thee; and I may make my peace with Thee my God, by the methods Thou hast prescrib'a, even Humiliation and Sorrow, and
earnest calling upon Thee. We are not to ' think, but that even this Terror is a Judge
ment from Thee. O Pardon, Gracious Lord, the Sins that have more immediately provok'd it; even our not having lay'd to Heart, so much as we shou'd, the terrors of thy Soul, O most gracious Lord Jesu, which 'Thou didst undergo for our sakes, when Thy
Soul was forromful even unto Death, and cry'd out, Father, save me from this hour : By Thy Terrors, O Lord, sanétify this Thy Judg
ment, and let us always love to meditate on 'Thy Agony for our fakes. Amen.
I find another excellent Meditation of His, upon the same Publick Troubles, Compos'd by him, December the Twency Second 1088, when our Fears and Distractions were at the
greatest heighth; and which I shall here give the Reader, that he may see how Mr. Bonnell, by a firm confidence in God, secur'd the peace of his own Mind, in that general disorder; and may learn the way to be safe and happy, shou'd God send the sameCalamities upon us.
If. 30. 15. Thus faith the Lord, the holy one of Israel, in returning and rest ye shall be saved,
inquietness and confidence shall be your strength: 'In returning from your solicitous cares and
anxious fears, and vain projectings for your escape and safety. The time you bestow
upon these, to how much better purpose i wou'd it be laid out in waiting upon me,
and imploring my aid and protetion who
am so easily able to defend you? And this is • the reason why in time of danger, I require
your resting quietness and confidence in me; • because if I think fit not to give you delive
ance, this fits your Souls for my self; to en< joy Me in a much better condicion.
But if < I send deliverance, this makes you know that " it comes from my hand, and disposes you c to make me thankful Returns for it. They
that in danger do not dispose themselves to • a dependance on God, and confidence in • him, if deliverance comes, they are apt to
impute it to an arm of Flesh, or to Chance, " and the revolution of things. But there « Souls, that quiet themselves in God, and < with an humble confidence, depend wholly " on his power and readiness to help them, if it be his Will, see plainly that what delivea rance they obtain is wrought by his hard