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How dost thou afli&t us in measure ? Tall then the consideration of my sickliness that I cannot shift so well nor live on so little as I might do, if I were well, dis

courage me from imparting of what I now ' have, to those that need it (tho? I have

reason to fear the loss of all I have ) when

I see how tender thy goodness and care is
I'in providing for nie according to the con-

dition thou puttest me in, and that thou
doft not lay on us many troubles, nor at

any time more than we are able to bear? ! It shall not hinder me, O Lord, by the 'Aid of thy Grace, but as I have freely re

ceiv’d, so will I freely give, and do thou % deal with me as seemeth good to Thee.


But io Great, fo Generous was Mr. Bon- His Charity nell's Charity, as to extend, even to Injuries to Enemies. and Enemies; insomuch, that, I believe, few, ever more fully obey'd the Command, or imitated the Example of our Lord, in loving his Enemies, and praying for his Persecutors. When he heard that any had spoken Reflectingly of him, he was hardly ever known to Rerenc it. And tho'humane Na. ture is hardly ever more Provok’d, than by Injurious or Reproachful Words; yet so much had Grace with him, got the Mastery of Nature, that the use he made of Slanders and Reflections, was, to examine himself, If be bad never been guilty of Detraction towards others; or at least beardehem Censur’á, without striving to Justifie them: If he' bad, then he



bopd, what he then Suffer’d, was all the Punishment God design'd him for it; if so, be chearfully embrac'd it.

And when immediately after the late Revolution, an attempt was made to Deprive him of his Employment ; a Gentleman having'made great Interest for it ; aud when things were brought to that pass, that both He and his friends look'd upon the Employment as lost: Yet he was rarely known to speak an angry Word against his Supplan

And when others, who were concern'd for Mr. Bonnell, wou'd Express themselves with some heat against that Gentleman; he commonly pleaded for him, and said every thing that cou'd be offer'd in his Favour. Thole Designs indeed Miscarry’d, but Mr. Bonnell's Charity was still the same. And how little such an Attempt discompos'd him, the following Meditation, Compos’d upon that particular occasion will snew.

O my God, I have often folemnly offer'd up to Thee my Place; Thou now takest

me at my Word: Ought I not to Rejoice + and be satisfi’d, that thou acceptest of any - thing from me For me now to be any

way Troubl’d or Repine at it, wou'd be a Childish Act between Man and Man; much more, Sinful, between a Creature and

its God. I Bless Thee for that entire Reai diness, which Thou hast hast put into me,

heretofore to offer it up to Thee: For + this gives me now the greatest Comfort, in thy taking it from me.


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How happy am I, in having disengag'd my self from the World before this Diffculty! How gracious has my God been to me, in having led me to it by the Hand

Ź that I might be light and free from all In

cumbrances, to follow his Blessed Will, without Uneasiness! I thought to have

past out of the World , into a nearer At-
tendance on thy Service, with Ease, Joy,
and Triumph. Thy Wisdom bath over-
rul'd my Foolish Measures : Thou hast

thought fit, that this Change shou'd not be without some hardship. But shou'd I think worse of it for that? Are not the

greatest Things, brought about by Con<dicts? To Silence all the rest, was not ' the Redemption of the World, brought a

bout by the Bitter Agony ofthy Dear Son?
Shall I be afraid to follow his steps, or
think it less leads to a Glorious ilue,
because Thou leadest me to it through

And what Pains he took, to Arm him. self with this Divine Charity to Enemies ;

and what his Thoughts of Injuries and Re! sentments were, the Two following Meditations will convince us.

O my God, I am thy Creature, and if 1699. "I may have leave to say, Thou art my

God; All is well, and I am Happy. Two
things I have always dreaded Disgrace, and

Enemies; left I Mou'd not be able to 'bear the 'One, or forgive the other. How great is thy Goodness to me, in lessening



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the dread of both! He is Happy, not who

enjoys Ease, but who can bear Uneafiness. • A Bishop of general Esteem and Repute,who ' cou'd bear being Whipt in the Publick < Streets, on an Unjuft Accufation, and not

lose his Countenance, wou'd . be the happiest Man alive. For if such a thing were done, we must suppose the higher Powers to be set against him; and the Fadi.

so strong, that none dar'd to Pity him, or appear for him :

But tho' he were Faultless, yet all shou'd look upon him as " Criminal enough, in being the object of " the Government's Displeasure. A Pro.

phet among the Jews was as Venerable as • a Bishop can be among us ; especially such

a Prophet as our Blessed Saviour, who went ' about doing good : Of whom the People

cry'd out never Man spake as he did; and ( who by the Fulness of his Grace and < Truth, Thin’d with the Glory of the Sun of God. Can we Figure a greater Ignominy than for him to be Scourg'd? We know how Reproachful that is among us now: ? But we know not how much more so it

was among them, since it was the Punish

ment of Slaves, of which we have none, " He bore Scourgings and Reproaches, without Murmurs and Complaints; and his Grace can prodnce the same Effects in

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"As to Enemies ; he is a great Man who can speak to them with indifference, without disturbance, or change of Countenance:



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Not from a Court Dissimulation, but from a Consideration that there are more immediate Instruments, (perhaps than our Friends) of Good to us; and that God is nearer behind these, when we converse

with them, than behind many of our Friends. God's Presence is said to be, where he

most manifests himself: Now he manifests ' himself more certainly, in his Corrections, than in his Favours. The other Meditation is as follows.

How easie is it for a Child of God, that has his Portion and Inheritance in HeaA ,

ven, to pray for his Enemies? For he faith, this Person Injures me in those things that are of no Esteem with me:

He Injures me in Trifles, and things of no value :

But even in these Trifles, he endangers the .

Eternal Ruine of his Soul. And shall I not 'Pity him for this; and beseech my God to Pity his Folly; and save him from those things which are nothing to me, but may prove infinitely Prejudicial to him? Father forgive them for they knoto 'not what they do,

says our Saviour. They knew that they 'took away the Life of an Innocent Man: They took away his Reputation, his Comfort and his Ease: But besides that they Crucifi'd the Lord of Glory, they knew not that they Ruin'd themselves, in those things that were little Valu'd' by him. They think to be Reveng'd on me, and to do me a great Injury: But Father forgive them,


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