distress did not so much arise from a sense of the wrath of God abiding on me, as from a sight of my unlikeness to him. My judgment and passions were at continual war. I felt the plague of my own heart, and groaned, being inexpressibly burthened. But, though, at times, I was almost ready to faint beneath the heavy load of anguish that oppressed me; I still thought it was not heavy enough; instead of waiting for the consolation of Israel, I was waiting for an addition of misery. I was extremely fearful of any mistake here. I believed it requisite te feel deeper sorrow than I had felt: and, therefore, durst not lay bold on any comfort; if the least presented itself, I immediately put it from me, believing God never designed it for me. I remained in this state till my misery so increased that the last ray of hope was almost extinguished, and I was often upon the point of giving up all, and sitting down in silent despair. Now I was tempted to form dreadful ideas of God; sometimes I thought he could not save me, at others, he would not. Often I was ready to conclude, he took pleasure in my anguish, and had brought me into the world to make me a monument of his wrath. At other times I thought I had trifled away the day of grace, or committed the unpardonable sin; and that it was in vain for me to seek for mercy, it being clean gone for ever. This was a day of clouds and thick darkness indeed; at last being driven out of every false refuge, yet not knowing how to get into the true, I came to the determination if I perish, I will perish crying, Mercy, mercy. Now I was not far from the kingdom of heaven. Some kind friends perceiving I had serious desires, gave me an invitation to meet in class. I accepted it; and soon became more clearly acquainted with the plan of salvation. The second time I met, while going, my mind was variously agitated, and I felt my wretchedness in a very painful manner. In extreme agony of soul, I lifted up my heart to God; and prayed fervently that he would not suffer me to perish; but that if there was mercy for me he would reveal it. Whilst I was musing on my state, and thinking if I could believe I should see the salvation of God, I felt a degree of faint hope spring up, the tempest became calm, and peace diffused itself throughout my soul. I did not then apprehend this was the blessing I had so long been seeking; and still fearing a mistake, I forebore saying any thing of it in the meeting; but told my Christian friends that I thought I could view Christ as dying for me. The class-leader encouraged me to hold fast the beginning of my confidence; and, I thought, seemed to have more faith for me than I had for myself. I was comforted and strengthened in the meeting; and, before the conclusion, prayed, for the first time, in public. But though I found an undeniable change had taken place, my fears of deceiving myself prevented me from rejoicing. I was some days before I could be satisfied that I had received the remission

of sins. I then began to enter into a close examination of myself,s and with inexpressible pleasure was enabled to discover some faint resemblance of a new creature."

It appears from Mrs. R.'s diary that this blessed change took place when she had nearly completed her 18th year, for about that time she wrote as follows:

"Wednesday night, March 5, 1800. After long crying out, "O dark, dark, dark, I still must say, amidst the blaze of gospelday,' the Lord hath appeared, and chased the gloomy clouds. This night, while at the class-meeting, I found power to cast my soul by faith on Jesus Christ; but though greatly blessed, I have still my doubts. I do not feel that rapturous joy which I expected to feet, though I find a measure of peace. O Lord, thou knowest my sincerity, thou knowest I would not deceive myself; if I am justi fied, through the merits of thy dear Son, do thou, by some way, speak, so that I may be assured of my interest in his precious blood."

"Wednesday 12. To-day the Lord has fully cleared up my evidence; I believe he is reconciled to me through the death of my Redeemer, his crucified and exalted Son. I feel peace and joy in the Holy Ghost, though not that ecstasy I expected to feel; it is more of a solemn composed frame. O may the Lord carry on his work to full perfection; for I feel a great deficiency, and (which I think somewhat singular) an aching void, that wants to be filled with more of God. O Lord, do enable me to press after entire holiness of heart and life.

"My experience was now as the morning-sun, shining brighter and brighter to the perfect day. I was soon enabled to rejoice with joy unspeakable and full of glory. In the fulness of my soul, I now began to talk to some of my relations. My dear sister M. had, before this, experienced something of the love of God; but now she began to be more in earnest in serving him; and the week after my bonds were broken asunder, she entered into the liberty of the children of God; and we rejoiced together, congratulating each other on our admission into the kingdom of grace.

"In nine weeks, I had three companions raised up to walk with me in the paths of holiness; and since that time four more of my dear relations have been given to me, I think, I may humbly say, in answer to ardent and persevering prayer. There are more of them, I have reason to believe, who are sincere seekers of pure religion; and I yet hope to see all my precious family made heirs of the kingdom of grace here, and inheritors of the kingdom of glory hereafter. May God grant it; amen, and amen!

"For ever blessed be my God, who still remembers me in infinite mercy; my tender Father does not frown me from his presence, but continues to follow, with patient kindness, his un

worthy, untractable child. O what boundless goodness! what amazing condescension! He not only pardons, but loves! Not only loves, but stoops to ask my love! Wonder, O heavens; be astonished, O earth! your Lord and Creator, the just, the holy, the injured God, deigns to solicit the love of a guilty self-condemned worm. O how shall I support such overwhelming kindness! How shall I sufficiently adore my loving, my patient Benefactor! Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits.

"Friday, 21. For these few days past, I have passed through deep waters; but, blessed be the merciful Saviour, they have not been permitted to overwhelm my soul. To-day, my soul has been feasted with marrow and fat things, from the table of redeeming grace. Surely, O my God, I have tasted largely of thy bounty. O for a thankful heart; O for power to praise thee at all times! "Thursday, 27. To-day I find that precious promise verified, He will keep them in perfect peace whose minds are stayed on him.' So good is the Lord, who, though the unworthiest of all his children, does indeed cause me to lie down in pleasant pastures, and to feed with the lambs of his flock. My soul enjoys sweet union and communion with the Father and the Son, through the blessed Spirit. With unspeakable delight my hungry soul sits at the feet of Jesus, waiting to be fed; and for ever adored be the compassionate Saviour; he feeds me with heavenly manna, and satisfies me with the children's bread, though utterly undeserving of the crumbs which fall from his table. Redeemer, I cannot tell how to express my gratitude to thee! But O, I want to love thee more; I want to love thee with an undivided heart; I want to love thee with a love that shall never grow cold, never diminish; kindle, O kindle, upon the altar of my soul, the bright, the ardent, the steady flame of heavenly love! There let it to thy glory burn, With inextinguishable blaze; And, trembling, to its source return,

In humble prayer and fervent praise.'

Saturday, April 5, 1800. This day I enter the 19th year of my age; I am ashamed when I look back, and see to what little purpose I have lived in the world for 18 years. God grant, if I have 18 more allotted me here, I may spend them more to his glory! O my gracious and patient God, from this time do thou enable me to live as becometh a candidate for a glorious eternity. And, if thou wilt so greatly condescend to accept of such a worthless creature, I would here give myself entirely to thee. I desire that my body, soul, time, and talents, may be altogether at thy disposal. And, from this hour, begging thy grace to help me, I am determined to be only thine-to take thee for my sovereign Lord, the sole proprietor of iny every power; the guide of my

youth, and the only lawful object of my love and adoration! I desire, most gracious Being, to be governed by thy Spirit's teaching; and, in all things, to yield a cheerful and ready obedience to thy commands! Almighty and indulgent Power; O impart strength to fulfil this, mighty engagement; and if ever, through accumulated trials, powerful temptations, the frowns of the world, or, its still more dangerous smiles, thou seest me ready to depart from thee, O look back to this period, remember this covenant, and let thine Almighty hand interpose in the critical moment, and snatch. me from the brink of impending ruin! And now, O my Father God, whom this day I have chosen to serve, in preference to my former lords, do thou ratify and confirm in heaven what here on earth I set my hand to, with which every power of my soul unites! Elizabeth Brown.

"Sunday 13. Glory be to God for an enlarged heart; O Lord, do thou abundantly fill it with thy Divine love. And, O my triumphant Saviour, as this is the anniversary of thy victory over death; do thou let thy resurrection's power be made known in me. Grant that I also may rise with thee; rise into all that glorious liberty, which thou hast purchased for thy children. Make me more diligent in the way of salvation; give me a serious disposition, and keep me at all times from that trifling spirit of levity, so common to youth. O may thy blessed Spirit sweetly influence my thoughts; and ever draw the whole bent of my soul heavenwards.

"Wednesday 23. This morning I feel my heart much enlarged; and my soul on full stretch for an entire renovation of my nature. Jesus, even at this moment, while I am writing, is exceedingly precious to my soul. Be gone, every idol! my Saviour alone shall be the sole Ruler of my simple heart. O my God, I have given it unto thee, be thou pleased to accept of it, and make it an habitation fit for thyself to reside in. Praised be thy name, thou dost not disregard the day of small things! Bless the Lord, O my soul!

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"Monday, 28. Endless praise, and unceasing adoration, be ascribed unto God the Lord, who heareth and answereth prayer! To-night I have found that precious promise verified in a particular manner, Open thy mouth wide, and I will fill it.' much fear and trembling, I have again, for the second time, opened my mouth to praise God in public; and, indeed, found him nigh at hand to assist the unworthiest, the most helpless of all his children. O may I never again distrust his readiness to give grace in the time of need. Why should I be so backward to engage in this duty, seeing I have met with so much encouragment while discharging it? O my Lord, I am distressed on account of this unbelieving heart; I cover my face, and am ashamed before thee! Pity, and help my weakness; pardon and

take away this ungrateful reluctance, to walk in the sacred path of duty.

"Thursday, May 8. I have still unspeakable cause of praise! My brother William, who, I believe, knew someting of genuine religion, when about 15 years old; but who, since then, had backslidden, was last night at the class-meeting restored again. Surely the Lord is about to revive his work! Within these last nine

weeks he has passed by, and proclaimed himself a God merciful and gracious to myself, sister M. cousin T. and brother W. and I believe, at present, we are all pressing toward the mark for the prize of our high calling of God in Christ Jesus. Blessed Being, give unto each of us persevering grace; and O! be tenderly mindful of the lambs of thy flock: but more especially my dear brother!

"June 2d. Yesterday, I was at a love-feast; and found the place to be the banqueting house of my Lord, while his banner over me was love. At first I felt my mind perplexed by wandering thoughts; and found a great backwardness to speaking; while hesitating, that passage of Scripture, they that confess me before men,' &c. was powerfully applied; and the precious promise annexed to the performance of this duty, made the scale preponderate; and determined me, though I did violence to my feelings, to declare the goodness of God to my soul. In doing this duty, I found another promise verified; the Holy Spirit helping my infimities beyond all my expectation.

"Since my wise and kind Deliverer first brought me into the narrow path of life, he has often seen good to lead me through fire and water, owing to spiritual, family, and constitutional trials. My exercises, to unhumbled nature, have often been very severe; but when I look back through the fight of affliction, and see the merciful interposition of Divine grace, working salvation in the deeps; sanctifying the rod; and giving me the benefit of suffering, by weaning my affections from earth, and enabling me to anticipate that weight of glory which awaits these momentary afflictions; I am constrained to say, for all I thank thee; most for the severe."

That this memoir may not be too much enlarged for insertion in the Methodist Magazine, I pass by seven years of her experience; which will bring it to that period when she and I first became acquainted.

"Oct. 23, 1807. A few weeks will again usher me into the busy world. My heavenly Protector, enable me to keep the issues of my heart, constantly watching unto prayer. In a short time I expect to leave Stapelford, for Sedbergh, near Kendall, in Westmorland. I believe it is a call from Providence; and, as usual, while following it, expect to pass through waters of tribu lation; but if I can render any assistance to my poor dear bro