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(for justice requires the utter- call the history, or facile repremost farthing, ) it must needs sentation of what is wrought follow that God, who is justice within them by what they call itself, will require it. This was their light, and say, that this is the both required and paid in the great mystery of godliness ; thus full and complete satisfaction literally denying the Lord who which Christ made for the sios bought them. of the whole world, in our true Imagination is a noble instru. and proper nature which had of. ment of religion, when it is built fended, by his perfect obedience, upon reason, and acted by it. and the sacrifice of himself upon It enlivens our devotions, it car

Herein the justice of ries us even beyond our strength God was infinitely exalted, in in our duty, makes us patient that a full, that is, an infinite even in tribulation, by shewing us satisfaction was given to it in the the crown that is set before us, sufferings of a person who was and gives us zeal, but still ac. of an infinite nature. This infi. cording to knowledge The im. nite satisfaction made to the jus. pressions made by the Holy Spirit tice of God, does equally exalt of God upon the imagination of his wisdom in finding out so won. the holy prophets and apostles, derful a means for our salvation in the visions and revelations Again, this infinity of justice given to them, always tended to and wisdom both equally exalt the improvement of their reason, the infinity of the goodness and and made it stronger.

But the mercy of God, in affording to impressions made by evil spirits us such à propitiation, in send. upon the imagination, always ing his Son to take our nature tend to the clouding of our rea. upon him and to make satisfac. son, that the imagination might tion for the sins of that nature. govern alone and without con. And thus the attributes of God trol. stand each full and complete;

Another remarkable difference they fight not or oppose each betwixt the impressions made by other, but each does exalt the good and evil spirits is, in and magnify the other. 'This the pisible effects, even upon is the great mystery of god. their bodies. The holy proph. liness, God manifest in the ets were even much moved, and flesh. This is it which the their bodies for a time rendered angels desire to look into and weak, during the impressions of adore to all eternity ; this it is some extraordinary visions; but which the quakers have tramp. still with gravity and decency, led upon and rejected, meaning befitting the awe they had to the no more by God manifest in the divine presence then exhibited to flesh than the light which, they them :


the heathen say, is manifest in their hearts, priests, when they were possessand that there the satisfaction is ed with their * made for sin, by that light with. forth oracles,fellinto convulsions in them, which they call the and strange distortions of body, mystery. But the outward com. wallowing and foaming at the ing of Christ, and all that he did or suffered upon earth, they,

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mouth in dreadful manner, yell. upon her, that she knew not ing, and sending forth hideous what some people meant by as. outcries, beyond their common surance; that she firmly believ. strength, to the terror ed Christ had made full satisfac. of beasts which heard the tion for her sins, as well as for noise.

the sins of all others; that he among the quakers, whence they would accept her sincere though got the name; and it often seiz- unworthy repentance, and help ed even little children among the weakness of her faith ; for them, so that it could be no that she trusted not either to the counterfeit. And the like has strength of her faith, or repent. been observable at the beginning ance, (which of themselves had of most of our sects.

need to be repented of) but as When the Jews were cut to they gave her ground to lay hold the heart, and repented, upon upon the complete and all-suffi. the preaching of the apostles, it cient satisfaction made for her is said, they smote their breasts by Christ; and this, said she, and returned ; but they did not is my assurance. It was before fall into fits, roar and bellow this, that she used to make the like madmen : no such ecstatic objection of the „way being too conversions are to be found in easy, which I mentioned before, holy scripture; all was grave, and upon which we have dis. serious, and lovely. The spirit coursed many days: she used to that descends from above, is first add, “Well, I cannot resist your pure, then peaceable, gentle, reasoning ; I do believe; but the and easy to be entreated. The hour of death is the time of trial; reverse of which is the spirit if it should fail me then, I should that ascends from beneath ; its think you had deceived me, and birth is in monstrous forms, its I am sure should be uneasy to gravity sour and sullen, the see you." This she often re. most difficult to be entreated, peated, but would confess, and the most impossible to be is that this was much more ra. convinced; for, having aban- tional, and infinitely more ad. doned reason, what can vancing the glory of God ia vince? What can a man answer all his attributes, than that to what you say you feel within wretched way of the quakers, you, for which you give no rea. to bid a man trust his salvation son nor hear any against it. to something within himself,

All this may seem a digression where he can find nothing but from the relation I promised what is mixed with our infirni. concerning the death of the per. ties and our sins, and utterly un. son, which is the subject of this, worthy to appear in the presence but it is necessary to make clear of God on its own account, but some passages in it. I remember greatly abhorrent to think it some few days before she died, should be worthy to make atone, she told me, that in a dream, an ment and satisfaction for other old woman came to her, and told sins, which whatever does, must her, she should be damned for surely be without sin itself : and want of assurance. She said if God sees folly in his angels, and the dream made no impression the heavens are not clean in his


sight, what creature can then knowledge of what was said, pretend to answer for the sins of and not capable of any answer. others ? None but Christ, who I bid her maid call me, when is God, could do it; and to mis. she came to the point of expirtrust the sufficiency of his satis- ing, that I might give her the re. faction would be infidelity : and commendatory prayer, which why should I fear for my sins ? was all then remaining to be For he came to take away my done. About seven or eight sins.” Then she would often o'clock at night her speech quite repeat, Lord I believe, help failed her, her flesh grew cold thou mine unbelief;" and some- and stiff, but she appeared to be times that saying in the Psalms, in great agony, and the rattle in Though I am sometimes afraid, her throat was so loud as might yet I put my trust in thee.” be heard in the next room.

I am now come to that which Thus she continued till four has occasioned all that I have o'clock in the morning, when said before, the last scene of her her maid came down and told life: she was worn to skin and her husband and me (who sat bone by a long and lingering up all this while in the parlor) consumption, and all hope of that the rattle in her throat was recovery was for a good while quite gone, and all her agonies taken away ; but on Tuesday, ceased, that she lay perfectly the 4th of March, 1700, the still, but yet was not asleep ; more immediate signs of death for they could perceive her appeared, her speech faltered, sometimes to open her eyes a and she grew so weak that she little, but presently shut them could not move one hand from again; and several times they under the clothes, nor put it in held something to her mouth to again, but as they did it for her. try if she had breath, for she The next day (which was Ash. lay as still as if she had been Wednesday) I told her in the dead. At five I went up to see morning that the service of the how she was, and some noise be. day was long, and asked her, if ing made in opening of the door, she could bear it all. “Yes, she started, and with struggling said she, I will have it all, for it got out the word,

66 What!” will be the last time." But be. meaning what noise that was. fore we got through the psalms They told her it was I, who (which are the seven penitential came to see how she did, and to for that day) she changed, and pray by her; she frowned and we were forced to break off, she put on a very angry look, and took leave of her husband, and said, “ Out, out," and at last, I went down with him to a par. 66 Put him out,” but speaking lor below stairs, for I had per

very imperfectly. suaded him not to be present to The woman made signs to me to sec her expire: such sights often withdraw, for they had kept the make too great impressions, es. room very still and quiet since pecially on those so nearly re. she had fallen into that still fit. lated, and he was a very kind I went down again into the parhusband and extremely tender of lour to her husband, but then þer, and she was now past all came into mind what she used to

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say so often, of making the way might not be too severe, and too easy, that the hour of death whether I had not gone too far was the time of trial, and if it in bringiog her entirely to our failed her then, she would not communion in her sickness endure the sight of one that had (though she went sometimes.to deceived her fatally. This church) which I did, and could wrought strongly in my mind, not otherwise have assisted her and it appeared to me as if this with the last offices of the had been the case : her speech church. I was sensible at that restored to her, though but to time that these were only the strain out three words to shew impressions of the imagination, her displeasure, when she had yet they were too strong for been quite speechless so many me, and in all my life I never hours before; and I never ex- endured so great agony, pected to hear another word If none of these were the cause, from her. She used to be de. then I concluded my unworthi. sirous of prayers, and now to was the cause, and that forbid me with so great anger,

God would not accept my

minis. when she could not explain her. trations, and therefore had not self-I thought if I had made blessed them. The last thing to the way too easy, and so de- which she appealed so often, ceived her, I had deceived my- the dying hour, having in all apself too, for I knew no other pearance failed her, and I never way to heaven for myself than I having had the opportunity of had told her, and that I should so long acquaintance with any deceive all others. I could not

I could not other person upon the subject of find in myself more signs of sin. religion, and conducting her cere repentance, and a' well through all the steps both of grounded faith than she had ex. public and private devotion, and pressed ; and all appearing to cases of conscience; this looked me to have failed her at the last, to me like the breaking of a ves. brought terrible apprehensions sel, on which one had bestowed upon me: then the Popish aus. great pains, or a ship, after a terities came into my mind, and long voyage sinking in the har. I thought though our doctrine be bor. This trouble was upon right, perhaps we make the way me for an hour, when just about too easy in our practice, and think six o'clock her maid came roo. to go to heaven in down beds, ning down, and opening the par. without giving ourselves any lor-door in haste, I concluded trouble about it; and that to it was to tell me (as I had avoid the doctrine of merit, we desired) that her mistress was ought not to lay aside all mor. just expiring, upon which I said tification. Then I bemoaned to her husband,“ Do not you the too general neglect among go up, I'll go up :" but the us of those fasts appointed in . maid (with great surprise in her our own church.

All my own face) said, “ No, no, you must sins looked me full in the face, both come up; for my mistress and I thought they are now re- hath sent for you both, and she quired of I reflected, is well and strong, and more whether my notion of schism cheerful than I ever saw her in



my life.

We run up, and In fevers, and other violent found her sitting up in her bed, attacks upon nature, when it is with both her arms out of the strong, there will be sometimes clothes expanded, and using a sudden and vigorous revulse them with full fre om. There of the spirits, which will strugwas a fresh and lively color in gle when expiring ; but it is not her face, and her eyes sparkling commonly so, when long and with such a transport of joy as slow. sicknesses have by degrees I never saw in any face before quite exhausted the strength of or since: her voice was strong the body, which drops down for and loud, and her words very want of spirits to support it. distinct and articulate. She But in all she said, bating the said, as soon as we came into strangeness of what she related, the room, I have sent for you there was not one disordered to let you know how gracious word, or that savored of lightGod has been to me, he has ness; and for nine hours after given me a foretaste of heaven; that she lived (for she died not he has shewed it to me. Oh! till three in the afternoon) she the glorious sight that I have spoke to her husband, to her seen of angels and blessed spir- child who was with her, to her its; and oh! the ravishing mu. sister, to her servants, and con. sic! it is impossible to express cerring her temporal affairs, it. My soul is exalted and en- with as much consistency and larged! Oh! I could dance, I strength of reason, as in all her could sing, I could fly!” that life; nor did one word, that

her very expression- looked in the least giddy or Come, said she, weep no light-headed, drop from her ; more, but praise God with me, though that transport and joy laugh, rejoice, and sing !” In

In in her face, and cheerfulness in that rapture she continued about her voice, and all her actions half an hour, before we gave her continued with her all along, any interruption. The first and in every thing she said and thing that came into my mind did. The impression that trans. was, that this might be a deliri. port of pleasure had printed in um, and that she was light. her countenance, was not quite headed, as an effect of her dis. worn off when she expired, and temper; but as she had not the seemed to remain even after her least of that during her whole death, an air of satisfaction apsickness, for which I have often peared in her corpse. She died heard her bless God, that amidst without a sigh or groan, or the all her paids he had kept her least struggle, or any thing more head and reason undisturbed ; terrible than seeing one fall into so it seemed strange to me, that a sweet sleep, just at the close of such fumes (if that were the the recommendatory prayer. A cause) should restore her little before she died, when she strength, speech, sight, in so could no longer discourse, but wonderful a manner, after she speak single words, I saw her had Jain now fifteen hours in the put her finger to her breast very jaws of death, for she was when death was making its last every thing but dead.

effort, and say, “hard, hard ;"


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