drinking, swearing, &c. Oh what a hell would it be, to be numbered with the ungodly! Enjoyed some agreeable conversation with a traveller, who seemed to have a relish of true religion.

Thursday, Aug. 21. Rode up the river about fifteen miles, and there lodged, in a family that appeared quite destitute of God. Laboured to discourse with the man about the life of religion, but found him very artful in evading such conversation. Oh what a death it is to some, to hear of the things of God! Was out of my element, but not so dejected as at some times.

Friday, Aug. 22. Continued my course up the river. My people now being with me, who before were parted from me, we travelled above all the English settlements. At night, lodged in the open woods, and slept with more comfort than while among an ungodly company of white people. Enjoyed some liberty in secret prayer this evening; was helped to remember dear friends, as well as my dear flock, and the church of God in general.

Saturday, Aug. 23. Arrived at the Indian town, called Shaumoking, near night. Was not so dejected as formerly, though somewhat exercised. Felt more composed in the evening, and enjoyed some freedom in leaving my all with God. Through great goodness, I was not distressed with despondency, as frequently heretofore.

Lord's day, Aug. 24. Towards noon, visited some of the Delawares, and discoursed with them about Christianity. In the afternoon, discoursed to the King, and others, upon divine things; they seemed disposed to hear. Spent most of the day in these exercises. In the evening, enjoyed some comfort and satisfaction, especially in secret prayer, this duty was made so agreeable to me, that I loved to walk abroad and repeatedly engage in it. Oh how comfortable is a little glimpse of God!

Monday, August 25. Spent most of the day in writing. Sent out my people that were with me, to talk with the Indians, and contract a friendship and familiarity with them, that I might have a better opportunity of treating with them about Christianity. Some good seemed to be done by their visits this day, divers appeared

willing to hearken to the gospel. My spirits were a little refreshed this evening, and I found some liberty and satisfaction in prayer.

Tuesday, August 26. About noon, discoursed to a considerable number of Indians. God helped me to speak with much plainness, warmth and power. The discourse had impression upon some, and made them appear very serious. I thought things now appeared as encouraging as they did at Crosweeks. At the time of my first visit to those Indians, I was a little encouraged. pressed things with all my might, and called out my people, who were then present, to give in their testimony for God; which they did. Towards night, was refreshed; felt a heart to pray for the setting up of God's kingdom here, as well as for my dear congregation and friends elsewhere.

Wednesday, August 27. There having been a thick smoke in the house where I lodged all night before, by which I was almost chocked, I was this morning distressed with pains in my head and neck, and could have no rest. In the morning, the smoke was still the same; and a cold easterly storm gathering, I could neither live within doors nor without any long time together. I was pierced with the rawness of the air abroad; in the house distressed with the smoke. I was this day very low, and lived in great distress; had not health enough to do any thing to purpose.

Thursday, August 28. In the forenoon was under great concern of mind about my work. Being visited by some who desired to hear me preach, I discoursed to them in the afternoon with some fervency, and laboured to persuade them to turn to God. Was full of concern for the kingdom of Christ, and found some enlargement in prayer, both in secret and in my family. Scarcely ever saw more clearly than this day, that it is God's work to convert souls, and especially poor Heathens. I knew I could not touch them; I saw I could only speak to "dry bones," but could give them no sense of what I said. My eyes were up to God for help: I could say, the work was his; and if done, the glory would be his.

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Friday, August 29. Felt the same concern of mind as the day before. Enjoyed some freedom in prayer, and a satisfaction to leave all with God. Travelled to the Delawares, found few at home: felt poorly, but was able to spend some time alone in reading God's word, and in prayer, and enjoyed some sweetness in these exercises. In the evening, was assisted repeatedly in prayer, and found some comfort in coming to the throne of grace.

Saturday, August 30. Spent the forenoon in visiting a trader, who came down the river sick. He appeared as ignorant as any Indian. In the afternoon, spent some time in writing, reading, and prayer.

Lord's day, August 31. Spent much time in the morning in secret duties: found a weight upon my spirits, and could not but cry to God with concern and engagement of soul. Spent some time also in reading and expounding God's word to my family that were with me, as well as in singing and praying with them. Afterwards spake the word of God to a few of the Susquabannah Indians. In the afternoon felt very weak and feeble. Near night was a little refreshed in mind, with some views relating to my great work. Oh how heavy is my work, when faith cannot take hold of an almighty arm, for the performance of it. Many times have I been ready to sink in this case. Blessed be God, that I may repair to a full fountain.

Monday, September 1.. Set out on a journey towards a place called The Great Island, about fifty miles distant from Shaumoking, in the north-western branch of Susquahannah. Travelled some part of the way, and at night lodged in the woods. Was exceeding feeble this day, and sweat much the night following.

Tuesday, Sep. 2. Rode forward, but no faster than my people went on foot. On this as well as the preceding days, I was so feeble and faint that I feared it would kill me to lie out in the open air. Some of our company also were parted from us, so that we had now no axe with us; and I had no way left but to climb into a young pine-tree, and with my knife to lop the branches, and so made a shelter from the dew. But the evening being

cloudy, and very likely for rain, I was still under fears of being extremely exposed. I sweat much in the night, so that my linen was almost wringing wet all night. I scarcely ever was more weak and weary than this evening, when I was able to sit up at all. This was a melancholy situation to be in; but I endeavoured to quiet myself with considerations of the possibility of my being in much worse circumstances, amongst enemies, &c.

Wednesday, Sep. 3. Rode to the Delaware town; found several persons drinking and drunken. Discoursed with some of the Indians about Christianity; observed my Interpreter much engaged and assisted in his work; some few seemed to hear with great earnestness. About noon, rode to a small town of Shauwaunoes, about eight miles distant; spent an hour or two there, and returned to the Delaware town, and lodged there. Was seldom more confounded with a sense of my own unfruitfulness and unfitness for my work than now. Oh what a dead, heartless, barren, unprofitable wretch did I now see myself to be! My spirits were so low, and my bodily strength so wasted, that I could do nothing at all. At length, being much overdone, I lay down on a Buffaloskin; but sweat much the whole night.

Thursday, Sep. 4. Discoursed with the Indians in the morning about Christianity. My Interpreter afterwards carried on the discourse to a considerable length : some few appeared well disposed, and somewhat affected. Left this place, and returned towards Shaumoking; and at night lodged in the place as on the Monday night before. Was in very uncomfortable circumstances in the evening, my people being belated, and not coming to me till past ten at night; so that I had no fire to dress any victuals, or to keep me warm, or keep off wild beasts. I was never more weak and worn out in all my life. However, I lay down and slept before my people came up, expecting nothing else but to spend the whole night alone, and without a fire.

Friday, Sep. 5. Was so weak that I could scarcely ride; it seemed sometimes as if I must fall off from my horse, and lie in the open woods. However, I got to

Shaumoking towards night, and felt thankful that God had so far returned me. I was also refreshed to see one of my Christians, whom I left here in my late excursion. Saturday, Sep. 6. Spent the day in a very weak state, coughing and spitting blood, and having little appetite to any food I had with me. Could do very little, except discourse awhile of divine things to my own people, and to some few I met with. Had by this time very little life or heart to speak for God, through feebleness of body and flatness of spirits. Was much ashamed and confounded in myself. I was sensible that there were numbers of God's people, who knew I was then out upon a design (or at least the pretence) of doing something for God and in his cause, among the poor Indians; and they were ready to suppose that I was "fervent in spirit." But oh the heartless frame of mind that I felt, filled me with confusion. Oh if God's people knew me, as God knows, they would not think so highly of my zeal and resolution for God, as perhaps now they do. I could not but desire they should see how heartless and irresolute I was, that they might be undeceived, and "not think of me above what they ought to think." And yet I thought, if they saw the utmost of my flatness and unfaithfulness, the smallness of my courage and resolution for God, they would be ready to shut me out of their doors, as unworthy of the company or friendship of Christians.

Lord's day, Sep. 7. Was much in the same weak state of body, and afflicted frame of mind, as in the preceding day; my soul was grieved, and mourned that I could do nothing for God. Read and expounded some part of God's word to my own dear family, and spent some time in prayer with them. Discoursed also a little to the Pagans, but spent the Sabbath with a little comfort.

Monday, Sep. 8. Spent the forenoon among the Indians; in the afternoon, left Shaumoking, and returned a few miles down the river. Had proposed to tarry a considerable time longer among the Indians upon Susquahannah; but was hindered from pursuing my pur