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xvii. 15. “ I shall be satisfied, when I awake with thy likeness." It was indeed a precious text to me, and I longed to preach to the whole world ; my thoughts were exceeding clear, and my soul was refreshed. Blessed be the Lord, that in my late and present weakness, now for many days together, my mind is not gloomy, as at some other times.
Friday, May 3. Felt a little vigour of body and mind, in the morning; had some freedom and fervency in prayer. Visited and spent some time with my Indians. In the evening, again retiring into the woods, I enjoyed some sweet meditations on Isaiah liii. 1. “ Yet it pleased the Lord to bruise,” &c.
[The three next days were spent in much weakness of body: yet he enjoyed some assistance in public and private duties; and seems to have remained free from melancholy. ]
Tuesday, May 7. Spent the day chiefly in making preparation for a journey into the wilderness. Was still weak, and concerned how I should perform so difficult a journey. Engaged in prayer for the divine blessing, direction, and protection in my intended journey; but wanted bodily strength to spend the day in fasting and supplication.
[The next day he set out on his journey to Susquahannah, with his Interpreter. He endured great hardships. and fatigues in his way thither through a hideous wilderness; where, after having lodged one night in the open woods, he was overtaken with a north-easterly storm, in which he was almost ready to perish. Having no manner of shelter, and not being able to make a fire in so great a rain, he could have no comfort if he stopped ; therefore determined to go forward in hopes of meeting with some shelter, without which he thought it impossible he should live the night through. But their horses happening to have eat poison (for want of other food) at a place where they lodged the night before, were so sick that they could neither ride nor lead them, but were obliged to drive them before them, and travel on foot ; until, through the mercy of God (just at dusk) they came to a bark-hụt, V
where they lodged at night. After he came to Susquahannah, he travelled about a hundred miles on the river, and visited many towns and settlements of the Indians ; saw some of seven or eight distinct tribes, and preached to different nations, by different interpreters. He was sometimes much discouraged, and sunk in his spirits, through the opposition that appeared in the Indians to Christianity. At other times, he was encouraged by the disposition that some of these people manifested to hear, and willingness to be instructed. He here met with some who had formerly been his liearers at Kaunaumeek, and had removed híther ; who saw and heard him again with great joy. He spent a fortnight among the Indians on this river; and passed through considerable labours and hardships, frequently lodging on the ground, and sometimes in the open air ; till at length he fell extremely ill, as he was riding in the wilderness, being seized with an ague, followed with a burning fever, and extreme pains in the head and bowels, attended with a great evacuation of blood; so that he thought he must have perished in the wilderness. But at last coming to an Indian trader's hut, he got leave to stay there; and though without physic food proper for him, it pleased God, after about a week's distress, to relieve him so far that he was able to ride. He returned homewards from Juncauta, an island far down the river; where was a considerable number of Indians, who appeared more free from prejudices against Christianity, than most of the other Indians. He arrived at the Forks of Delaware on Thursday, May 30, after having rode in this journey about three hundred and forty miles." He came home in a very weak state, and under dejection of mind; which was a great hindrance to him in religious exercises. However, on the Sabbath, after having preached to the Indians, he preached to the white people with some suc. cess, from Isaiah liii. 10. “ Yet it pleased the Lord to bruise him," &c. Some were awakened by his preach
* This is the journey which he occasionally mentions in his printed Journal.
-ing. The next day, he was much exercised for want of spiritual life and fervency.]
Tuesday, June 4. Towards evening, was in distress for want of the divine presence, and a sense of spiritual things. Withdrew to the woods, and spent near an hour in prayer and meditation; and the Lord had compassion
The season was indeed refreshing ; my soul enjoyed intenseness and freedom in prayer, so that it grieved me to leave the place.
Wednesday, June 5. Felt thirsting desires after God, in the morning. In the evening, enjoyed a precious season of retirement: was favoured with some delightful meditations upon a sacred text. Divine things opened with clearness and certainty, and had a divine stamp upon them: my soul was also enlarged and refreshed in prayer, and I delighted to continue in the duty. I was assisted in prayer for fellow-Christians, and my dear brethren in the ministry. Blessed be the Lord for such enjoyments. Oh how sweet and precious it is, to have a clear apprehension and tender sense of the mystery of godliness, of true holiness, and likeness to the best of Beings! What a blessedness, to be as much like God, as it is possible for a creature to be like his great Creator! Lord, give me more of thy likeness; “I shall be satisfied when I awake' with it.
Thursday, June 6. Was engaged, a considerable part of the day, in meditation and study on divine subjects. Enjoyed some special freedom and sweetness in medita. tion. How refreshing it is, to be enabled to improve time well!
[The next day he went a journey of near fifty miles to Neshaminy, to assist at a sacramental occasion, to be attended to at Mr Beaty's meeting-house; being invited thither by him and his people. ]
Saturday, June 8. Was exceeding weak and fatigued with riding in the heat yesterday : but being desired, I preached in the afternoon, to a crowded audience, from Isaiah. xl. 1. “ Comfort ye, comfort ye my people, saith your God.” The Lord was pleased to give me great freedom, in opening the sorrows of his people, and in setting before them comforting considerations. And, blessed be his name, it was a sweet melting season in the assembly.
Lord's day, June 9. Felt some longing desires for the presence of God to be with his people on the solemn occasion of the day. In the forenoon, Mr Beaty preached, and there appeared some warmth in the assembly. Afterwards, I assisted in the administration of the Lord's Supper : and towards the close of it, I discoursed to the multitude ertempore, with some reference to that sacred passage, Isaiah liji. 10. “ Yet it pleased the Lord to bruise him." Here I had great assistance in addressing sinners, and the word was attended with amazing power ; many scores, if not hundreds, in that great assembly, consisting of three or four thousand, were much affected; so that there was “ a very great mourning, like the mourning of Hadadrimmon.”—In the evening I could hardly look any body in the face, because of the imperfections I saw in my performances the day past.
Monday, June 10. Preached with a good degree of clearness and warmth, from Psal. xvii. 15. “ I shall be satisfied when I awake with thy likeness.” And blessed be God, there was a great solemnity and attention in the assembly, and some refreshment among God's people.
Tuesday, June 11. Spent the day chiefly in conversation with Christian friends, and enjoyed some sweet sense of divine things. Oh how desirable it is, to keep company with God's dear children! These are the “ excellent of the earth, in whom,” I can truly say, “ is all my delight.' Oh what delight will it afford, to meet them all in a state of perfection! Lord, prepare me for it.
[The next day he left Mr Benty's, and went to Maiden-head in New-Jersey; and spent the next seven days in a comfortable state of mind, visiting several ministers in those parts. ]
Tuesday, June 18. Set out from New-Brunswick with a design to visit some Indians * at a place called
* Mr Brainerd having, when at Boston, wrote and left with a friend a brief Relation of Facts concerning his labours with the In
Crosweeksung in New-Jersey, towards the sea. In the afternoon, came to a place called Cranberry, and meet ing with a serious minister, Mr Macknight, I lodged there with him. Had some enlargement and freedom in prayer with a number of people.
From his first beginning to preach to the Indians al Cros
weeksung, till he returned from his journey to Susqua,
hannah ill with the consumption whereof he died. We are now come to that part of Mr Brainerd's life, wherein he had the greatest success in his labours for the good of souls, and in his particular business as a missionary to the Indians. After all his agonizing in prayer, and travelling in birth, for the conversion of the Indians, and all the interchanges of his raised hopes and expecta. tions, and then disappointments and discouragements; and after waiting in a way of persevering prayer, labour and suffering, as it were through a long night, at length the day dawns. “ Weeping continues for a night, but joy comes in the morning. He went forth weepings bearing precious seed, and now he comes with rejoicing, bringing his sheaves with him.” The desired event is brought to pass at last; but at a time, in a place, and
dians, and reception among them, during the space of time between November 5, 1744, and June 19, 1745, (with a view to connect bis Narrative, at the end of Mr Pemberton's ordination-sermon, and his Journal, in case they should ever be re-printed,) concludes the same with this passage: As my body was very feeble, so my mind was scarce ever so much damped and discouraged about the conversion of the Indians, as at this time. And in this state of body and mind I made my first visit to the Indians in New Jersey, where God was pleased to display his power and grace in the remarkable manner that I have represented in my printed Journal."